Okay~~~ Time to write a reflection of 2005, I know it's a bit late, I actually started this on 27th of dec but due to *cough* distractions such as *cough* DW5 i didn't complete this before end of 2005 (which as the result I had to go through the entire entry and change all "this year" to 2005 etc.. hehehe ANYHOW once again i like to warn you that this maybe a very long blog entry so if you don't want to get bored of Lucy's "blahs" or you are in a hurry to go somewhere, I advice you not to read this entry.
The year of 2005 I guess had been a very good year for me. The end of 2004 I anticipated an unemployed year and guess what, at the very very beginning 2005 I got a new job, it's almost as if it dropped from the sky (seeing how I applied for this job at April 2004 and never heard from then until early 2005). In fact the timing was almost 'perfect' in the sense that it came it just after the deadline of withdrawing summerschool (a deal i made with mum that i will either be doign summerschool or get a job). Len just reminded me how I was stressing and complaining about how hard it was to have to do summerschool + having to wag about half of the lectures due to job training.. thinking back it was after all all worth it.
The job at Agriquality of course was a great financial support (even tho it was quite a decrease in wages from last year) but at least this job is a lot more flexible, it's a lot easier to take leaves, and it's always great having the option to work during public holidays for the extra bucks ;) The ppl at Agriquality are very nice~~ they are somewhat very different to the ppl i normally hang out with, sure i found a few who's as crazy about ps2 and anime as I am, but in general i think they are more carefree and 'out there', they almost reminds me of those college girls you see in movies, not in terms on how girls obsessed with their looks or anything ( in fact they are anythign buts) but in the way how they all day dream about rock bands or certain male actor, they make me feel almost if i am indeed a huge geek :P. Perhaps it is because almost all my friends I have are from schools or uni, where we are heavily weighed down by our academic pressures that I fail to recognise that there's so much more to uni life than just going to lectures, attending labs and cramming for exams. Workign with them 8-9 hours a week allowed me to see uni life in their perspective, shopping, going to each other's lectures, concerts on weekends. Though I am doubtful I will ever be as carefree as they are, but they made me realized the things I thought were really importants were perhaps not nearly as important, and that going 'crazy' once in a while is not all that bad right?
As for summerschool.. well, I met Danny in summerschool, that should be good enough of a reason for me to be thankful that I did it right? not to mention that thanks to transitional regulation changing from 7 papers to 8 papers a year, the paper that was useless to me is not offocially academically useful.. which means i only have to do 7 papers next year *hurray* Not to mention I made another good friend named Shawn who's now my new workmate. ^^
Uni wise well... it's harder to say the least, and looking at what everyone else is doign I feel i can hardly complain about it seeing how I only had to take 6 papers instead of the standard 7. Nevertheless my grades has dropped on average just over a point which I guess it's not the end of the world bad, not that mum is too happy about it. ^^: She wont' be too happy to know that for the first time in my life I failed a test either. The micro test in sem 1 was a shocker... really.. and what made it worse was that I didn't expected that at all. Thankfully that was only an 10% test and in a good way it made me study really hard for that exam and still manage to get an A- at the end of it. Biochem was a disaster, it was the last exam of the year and i just kinda.. gave up, not because it was too hard or anythign just coz i just can't be bothered and unfortunately my laziness was reflected in my marks. I guess I am disappointed at myself more than anythign becuase it was actually a paper that I consistantly written notes for throughout the semester but just coudlnt' push myself to do more last minute cramming. Though in some bizarre way I am kinda glad that I gotten a crap mark this year, on some subconscience level I have always kinda hoped I'll get a bad grade someday so it'll wake me up to study harder and not rely so heavily on my good exam luck... so I guess I just have to learn from this and study harder this year *nod nod*. 3rd year isn't gonna be easy but hey~ bring it on~ I am ready for ya (in march, coz i still want my holidays :P )
2004 was a year where I thrive to be independent, I wanted to make sure that I can be ok and happy just being myself before I even think about gettign into a relationship I wanted to be sure that me looking for a bf will not be just becozI needed seomeone, the idea of simply finding a bf becoz I need someone to make me happy was daunting to me, and at the end of 2004 i thought i was ready. And with good luck i met someone early 2005, but when I was thrown into a relationship, I found that perhaps i wasn't as ready as i thought I was. People often talk about how relationships was all about compromising, I just didn't realize how extensive the compromising will go. Remembering back to the beginning of the relationship, we were both surprised at how much alike we were but as time progresses, I start to discover that we have really fundamental differences. For example, at the start, we went to dine in burger king once ordering seperately, and at the end of the order we found we getting exactly the same combo with exactly the same drink, there were many many examples of us having the same preferred order when we go to restaurants etc... but when the time comes when we eat from home (the time when I was home alone) I start to see how many food I absolutely loved he hated or can't eat. I mean sure food can be easily compromised, especially when Danny is nice to never have a problem with whatever I eat as long as he gets to choose what he wants to eat. But when it comes to other problems it isnt' so easily solved. For a person who had just thrived to be independent, friends and family were the most important things to me, at the time that was all I had, and my friends gave me the support, love, and the ones who were dating at the time always made time for me. Now that I am in a relationship, who gave me the right to say that it shud be any different. My family and friends have given me more than i can ever return in a lifetime, two of my closest friend went through difficult times last year and as a friend I try to be there for them as much as I can just like they have in the past. Not to mention there are many many more of my friends which I am so grateful to have and would never ever want to loose because I am spending less time with them. In my desperation to hold on to these bonds unfortunately means compromising my outing times between with Danny and my friends, and I confess that I am a failure in compromising often making Danny feel he is on the bottom on my priority list. Even today I am still struggling tryign to juggle between my time spending, and me being lazy and addicted to ps2 isn't helping, but again I feel very lucky to have an understanding bf who despite his feeling of being unimportant (which is completely not true) is tolerant and willing to compromise with me on this and many many issues .
When I started doing my review blog, I had no intentions of making a thanking list like 2004 because it takes a lot of time and effort to express my appreciation for ppl around me and I am always afraid that I might have written it really badly and making the receipent feeling less appreciated than I intended to. But here I am at the end of this post feeling that without the ppl who are around me, i woudln't be able to get through last year the way I did... SO here it is.. my short list of 'thanking list', and keep in mind that it's not the length, but the thought that counts ;)
Starting with my family of course for their unconditional love, giving me support in so many ways. And of course there's Emily whom for whatever reason I am more than glad that she decided to stay in nz. I can't imagine life without her. I mean.. how can I manage without a big sister who's always looking out for me, my fashion advisor, my shopping buddy, problem solver, etc etc and the list goes on. I really really cherish the bonds I share with you sis~ and if i can help if i hoep that we can live together forever and ever. ^^
To Danny who's so understanding and tolerate than I ever hoped him to be. I don't believe in the whole "you completes me" thing, although the idea of it is really romantic and all, I think that it's just an excuse for ppl to complain about their life being imperfect, and that they have the whole dream of a prince walking into their life and everything will be ok~~. I believe a good relationship apart from the obvious of enjoyment, it should allow 2 ppl to learn from each other and grow and be better as a person because of him or her . And Danny has done that for me in every way. Not only is he *cough* geeky enough to just answer or look up things I randomly wanted to know, but because of our differences, I get to see life in a different perspective. And to top it off, he is actually really sweet, not in the conventional "Giving roses and romantic dinners-kinda sweet" but in the way that he'll spend lots of time on me. Like he's a regular visitor to my lectures even tho it's really boring that sometimes even I dont' wanna listen to it, and when I am stuck on my assingments and stuff and complains about it, he'll go search it on the net for me without me asking. So... to my dearest Slowpoke : I know we have many issues to work out, but I am so glad that I get to work those out with you, and I look forward to our journey ahead.
To Len and Tina~~Thank you for another year of tremendous friendship and support you've given me. I know 2005 had been a tough year for both of you but I am sooo happy to see both of you walk out of the dark times and came out better and stronger. YOU GO GIRLS~~ Even tho we have no common papers this year, I still hope we can have our regular girl's afternoon tea thing ^__^ I LOVE YOU GIRLS~
To Christine and Amy~ my foodsci buddies. I can't imgine lectures without you two, what will be lectures without us whining, cursing lecturers, eating, drawing random things and basically doign anything except listening to the lecturers? :P Christine~ I enjoyed stressing + last minute cramming with you, I am really glad I have you to check assignment answers with or last minute study queries, I don't think I would've gotten through engsci quite the same way as I did without you. (seeing how I am more of a last minute person than you are :P ) EITHER WAY let's hope this year there'll be less stressing coz we are gonna be more organised and do things EARLY (*roll eyes* as if!!) :P Amy~~ my lab partner for many papers, it's been really fun being your lab partner, you have a can-do attitude and can figure out ways to do things 100x faster than I can :P so you know what~~ I dont' mind if they are doing that alphebetical thing this year again :P coz then I get to have YOU as my labpartner ^___^ YAY~~~
To Sherry and Jun (yes I got the name right) THis year we'll prob have no more common papers together, but I hope we'll still have time to meet up during the week (and I know we can if we have the will) . Sherry~ thanks for being such a great lab partner again ^^ you always take the initiate, and are sooo good at bugging the demonstrators for answers so i dotn' have to do the asking :P to Jun~ after the sleepover, I am happy to know that despite the name change (again) you are still our Junie Kangaroonie, I know you have a different crowd of friends now but I hope we can still hang sometimes ;) and er.. check out guys *cough*
To Alex~~ My lil sis~~ I am sooo proud of you that you got into uni ~~ and I really really look forward to seeing you around in uni this year... hehehe music department! here i come :D
To my tour friends~ (you know who you are ;) I know here it comes to a time where the chance of us meeting up is decreasing at an alarming rate. But I just want you guys to know that "I AM NOT DONE WITH YOU GUYS YET!" that's right~ we are gonna have gatherings from time to time whether you guys like it or not ( i am bossy i know~ ) hehehe It's not everyday I meet a group of friends where I feel so relax and have so much fun on our outings wherever we go (even if it's just to the cafe and sat for 5 hours) so yup~ call me clingy but you haven't seen the last of me yet :D hehehe
And to all the ppl that i have failed to mention above, such as Honour, Hsuan, Peter, Josephatt all my workmates, etc, you ppl still have an important place in my heart, Just becuase we don't see/chat to each other often, I still cherish the times that we do. so keep in touch. ^___^
OMG~~~ i made it to the end of the blog... didn't think I was gonna make it *happy* anwyay.. here's my very belated review of 2005 and I wish everyone a very very good year of 2006.
LOVE YOU ALL~~~
The year of 2005 I guess had been a very good year for me. The end of 2004 I anticipated an unemployed year and guess what, at the very very beginning 2005 I got a new job, it's almost as if it dropped from the sky (seeing how I applied for this job at April 2004 and never heard from then until early 2005). In fact the timing was almost 'perfect' in the sense that it came it just after the deadline of withdrawing summerschool (a deal i made with mum that i will either be doign summerschool or get a job). Len just reminded me how I was stressing and complaining about how hard it was to have to do summerschool + having to wag about half of the lectures due to job training.. thinking back it was after all all worth it.
The job at Agriquality of course was a great financial support (even tho it was quite a decrease in wages from last year) but at least this job is a lot more flexible, it's a lot easier to take leaves, and it's always great having the option to work during public holidays for the extra bucks ;) The ppl at Agriquality are very nice~~ they are somewhat very different to the ppl i normally hang out with, sure i found a few who's as crazy about ps2 and anime as I am, but in general i think they are more carefree and 'out there', they almost reminds me of those college girls you see in movies, not in terms on how girls obsessed with their looks or anything ( in fact they are anythign buts) but in the way how they all day dream about rock bands or certain male actor, they make me feel almost if i am indeed a huge geek :P. Perhaps it is because almost all my friends I have are from schools or uni, where we are heavily weighed down by our academic pressures that I fail to recognise that there's so much more to uni life than just going to lectures, attending labs and cramming for exams. Workign with them 8-9 hours a week allowed me to see uni life in their perspective, shopping, going to each other's lectures, concerts on weekends. Though I am doubtful I will ever be as carefree as they are, but they made me realized the things I thought were really importants were perhaps not nearly as important, and that going 'crazy' once in a while is not all that bad right?
As for summerschool.. well, I met Danny in summerschool, that should be good enough of a reason for me to be thankful that I did it right? not to mention that thanks to transitional regulation changing from 7 papers to 8 papers a year, the paper that was useless to me is not offocially academically useful.. which means i only have to do 7 papers next year *hurray* Not to mention I made another good friend named Shawn who's now my new workmate. ^^
Uni wise well... it's harder to say the least, and looking at what everyone else is doign I feel i can hardly complain about it seeing how I only had to take 6 papers instead of the standard 7. Nevertheless my grades has dropped on average just over a point which I guess it's not the end of the world bad, not that mum is too happy about it. ^^: She wont' be too happy to know that for the first time in my life I failed a test either. The micro test in sem 1 was a shocker... really.. and what made it worse was that I didn't expected that at all. Thankfully that was only an 10% test and in a good way it made me study really hard for that exam and still manage to get an A- at the end of it. Biochem was a disaster, it was the last exam of the year and i just kinda.. gave up, not because it was too hard or anythign just coz i just can't be bothered and unfortunately my laziness was reflected in my marks. I guess I am disappointed at myself more than anythign becuase it was actually a paper that I consistantly written notes for throughout the semester but just coudlnt' push myself to do more last minute cramming. Though in some bizarre way I am kinda glad that I gotten a crap mark this year, on some subconscience level I have always kinda hoped I'll get a bad grade someday so it'll wake me up to study harder and not rely so heavily on my good exam luck... so I guess I just have to learn from this and study harder this year *nod nod*. 3rd year isn't gonna be easy but hey~ bring it on~ I am ready for ya (in march, coz i still want my holidays :P )
2004 was a year where I thrive to be independent, I wanted to make sure that I can be ok and happy just being myself before I even think about gettign into a relationship I wanted to be sure that me looking for a bf will not be just becozI needed seomeone, the idea of simply finding a bf becoz I need someone to make me happy was daunting to me, and at the end of 2004 i thought i was ready. And with good luck i met someone early 2005, but when I was thrown into a relationship, I found that perhaps i wasn't as ready as i thought I was. People often talk about how relationships was all about compromising, I just didn't realize how extensive the compromising will go. Remembering back to the beginning of the relationship, we were both surprised at how much alike we were but as time progresses, I start to discover that we have really fundamental differences. For example, at the start, we went to dine in burger king once ordering seperately, and at the end of the order we found we getting exactly the same combo with exactly the same drink, there were many many examples of us having the same preferred order when we go to restaurants etc... but when the time comes when we eat from home (the time when I was home alone) I start to see how many food I absolutely loved he hated or can't eat. I mean sure food can be easily compromised, especially when Danny is nice to never have a problem with whatever I eat as long as he gets to choose what he wants to eat. But when it comes to other problems it isnt' so easily solved. For a person who had just thrived to be independent, friends and family were the most important things to me, at the time that was all I had, and my friends gave me the support, love, and the ones who were dating at the time always made time for me. Now that I am in a relationship, who gave me the right to say that it shud be any different. My family and friends have given me more than i can ever return in a lifetime, two of my closest friend went through difficult times last year and as a friend I try to be there for them as much as I can just like they have in the past. Not to mention there are many many more of my friends which I am so grateful to have and would never ever want to loose because I am spending less time with them. In my desperation to hold on to these bonds unfortunately means compromising my outing times between with Danny and my friends, and I confess that I am a failure in compromising often making Danny feel he is on the bottom on my priority list. Even today I am still struggling tryign to juggle between my time spending, and me being lazy and addicted to ps2 isn't helping, but again I feel very lucky to have an understanding bf who despite his feeling of being unimportant (which is completely not true) is tolerant and willing to compromise with me on this and many many issues .
When I started doing my review blog, I had no intentions of making a thanking list like 2004 because it takes a lot of time and effort to express my appreciation for ppl around me and I am always afraid that I might have written it really badly and making the receipent feeling less appreciated than I intended to. But here I am at the end of this post feeling that without the ppl who are around me, i woudln't be able to get through last year the way I did... SO here it is.. my short list of 'thanking list', and keep in mind that it's not the length, but the thought that counts ;)
Starting with my family of course for their unconditional love, giving me support in so many ways. And of course there's Emily whom for whatever reason I am more than glad that she decided to stay in nz. I can't imagine life without her. I mean.. how can I manage without a big sister who's always looking out for me, my fashion advisor, my shopping buddy, problem solver, etc etc and the list goes on. I really really cherish the bonds I share with you sis~ and if i can help if i hoep that we can live together forever and ever. ^^
To Danny who's so understanding and tolerate than I ever hoped him to be. I don't believe in the whole "you completes me" thing, although the idea of it is really romantic and all, I think that it's just an excuse for ppl to complain about their life being imperfect, and that they have the whole dream of a prince walking into their life and everything will be ok~~. I believe a good relationship apart from the obvious of enjoyment, it should allow 2 ppl to learn from each other and grow and be better as a person because of him or her . And Danny has done that for me in every way. Not only is he *cough* geeky enough to just answer or look up things I randomly wanted to know, but because of our differences, I get to see life in a different perspective. And to top it off, he is actually really sweet, not in the conventional "Giving roses and romantic dinners-kinda sweet" but in the way that he'll spend lots of time on me. Like he's a regular visitor to my lectures even tho it's really boring that sometimes even I dont' wanna listen to it, and when I am stuck on my assingments and stuff and complains about it, he'll go search it on the net for me without me asking. So... to my dearest Slowpoke : I know we have many issues to work out, but I am so glad that I get to work those out with you, and I look forward to our journey ahead.
To Len and Tina~~Thank you for another year of tremendous friendship and support you've given me. I know 2005 had been a tough year for both of you but I am sooo happy to see both of you walk out of the dark times and came out better and stronger. YOU GO GIRLS~~ Even tho we have no common papers this year, I still hope we can have our regular girl's afternoon tea thing ^__^ I LOVE YOU GIRLS~
To Christine and Amy~ my foodsci buddies. I can't imgine lectures without you two, what will be lectures without us whining, cursing lecturers, eating, drawing random things and basically doign anything except listening to the lecturers? :P Christine~ I enjoyed stressing + last minute cramming with you, I am really glad I have you to check assignment answers with or last minute study queries, I don't think I would've gotten through engsci quite the same way as I did without you. (seeing how I am more of a last minute person than you are :P ) EITHER WAY let's hope this year there'll be less stressing coz we are gonna be more organised and do things EARLY (*roll eyes* as if!!) :P Amy~~ my lab partner for many papers, it's been really fun being your lab partner, you have a can-do attitude and can figure out ways to do things 100x faster than I can :P so you know what~~ I dont' mind if they are doing that alphebetical thing this year again :P coz then I get to have YOU as my labpartner ^___^ YAY~~~
To Sherry and Jun (yes I got the name right) THis year we'll prob have no more common papers together, but I hope we'll still have time to meet up during the week (and I know we can if we have the will) . Sherry~ thanks for being such a great lab partner again ^^ you always take the initiate, and are sooo good at bugging the demonstrators for answers so i dotn' have to do the asking :P to Jun~ after the sleepover, I am happy to know that despite the name change (again) you are still our Junie Kangaroonie, I know you have a different crowd of friends now but I hope we can still hang sometimes ;) and er.. check out guys *cough*
To Alex~~ My lil sis~~ I am sooo proud of you that you got into uni ~~ and I really really look forward to seeing you around in uni this year... hehehe music department! here i come :D
To my tour friends~ (you know who you are ;) I know here it comes to a time where the chance of us meeting up is decreasing at an alarming rate. But I just want you guys to know that "I AM NOT DONE WITH YOU GUYS YET!" that's right~ we are gonna have gatherings from time to time whether you guys like it or not ( i am bossy i know~ ) hehehe It's not everyday I meet a group of friends where I feel so relax and have so much fun on our outings wherever we go (even if it's just to the cafe and sat for 5 hours) so yup~ call me clingy but you haven't seen the last of me yet :D hehehe
And to all the ppl that i have failed to mention above, such as Honour, Hsuan, Peter, Josephatt all my workmates, etc, you ppl still have an important place in my heart, Just becuase we don't see/chat to each other often, I still cherish the times that we do. so keep in touch. ^___^
OMG~~~ i made it to the end of the blog... didn't think I was gonna make it *happy* anwyay.. here's my very belated review of 2005 and I wish everyone a very very good year of 2006.
LOVE YOU ALL~~~
