She Left
She left... but how come it feels like she is still going to walk through that door at any moment.
I am supposely officially taken over her room, but how come sitting here I still feel like I am sitting in hers.
Her pink stripy sheet is still laying on her bed. Her pink pencil case is still on her desk, right next to me. Her perfume smell still lingers.
She said in her wedding MV, what is she going to do without me. I didn't doubt then, that she will just do fine without me. But then it hit me with a realization that what am I gonna do WITHOUT her.
How many times have I relied on her to help me with my make up. How often had I asked her opinions on how I should wear my clothes. HOw often had I relied on my wise sister to come up with an intelligent solution to my problems. How weekly I expect her to sleep in on weekends, I can I lie next to her, sleeping in together. How frequently, I would grab something in her wardrobe to complete my outfit, and watch her to the same with my clothes. How everytime mum tell us to drop somethign off at her friend's house, we would endlessly argue who should go, and ended up going together because that's the only fair solution. How everytime parents goes away for a few days, we talk of going on diet and eat somethign healthy, and yet always ended up buying takeaways or fast food.
What AM I goign to do without her, when she's not in the next room, not the next house, not even a drive away, but 4 hours phone call away.
Above all that, I SHOULD be happy for her, i AM happy for her, unfortunately that happiness will just have to kick in a bit later, because her little sister is selfish, and all she can think about is what the heck is she going to do without her sister.
I am...... lost....
I am supposely officially taken over her room, but how come sitting here I still feel like I am sitting in hers.
Her pink stripy sheet is still laying on her bed. Her pink pencil case is still on her desk, right next to me. Her perfume smell still lingers.
She said in her wedding MV, what is she going to do without me. I didn't doubt then, that she will just do fine without me. But then it hit me with a realization that what am I gonna do WITHOUT her.
How many times have I relied on her to help me with my make up. How often had I asked her opinions on how I should wear my clothes. HOw often had I relied on my wise sister to come up with an intelligent solution to my problems. How weekly I expect her to sleep in on weekends, I can I lie next to her, sleeping in together. How frequently, I would grab something in her wardrobe to complete my outfit, and watch her to the same with my clothes. How everytime mum tell us to drop somethign off at her friend's house, we would endlessly argue who should go, and ended up going together because that's the only fair solution. How everytime parents goes away for a few days, we talk of going on diet and eat somethign healthy, and yet always ended up buying takeaways or fast food.
What AM I goign to do without her, when she's not in the next room, not the next house, not even a drive away, but 4 hours phone call away.
Above all that, I SHOULD be happy for her, i AM happy for her, unfortunately that happiness will just have to kick in a bit later, because her little sister is selfish, and all she can think about is what the heck is she going to do without her sister.
I am...... lost....
