*stress stress* mm1 basic skills test tmr :S actually... i'll be stressed like this for the next 3 week until the holidays.. argh~~ so much to do, so little time... and yes i am procrastinating yet again and am blogging instead.. heheh oh well~~ :P i do have lots and lots to blog abt, but i guess i dotn' really ahve time so it's all gonna be.. really brief.. :p

Jeff's 21st party on Sunday was really great~ it was held at the 'one red dog' restaruant and they have really really nice pizzas :D hehehe... honestly~~ i knew jeff had connections.. but to invited about 50 ppl to ur party?? i mean~~ WOW~~~ i don't think i even know 50 ppl ^^: but it was an interesting night.. to hear what ppl say about jeff at different times of his life. Sitting there listening to all those speeches makes me feel guilty almost.. i mean.. how long do i spend bonding with my friends a week?? not long at all, i mean i was completely antisocial last year, spending a lot of time in ic just doign my work, and thinking back to college, i spend a lot of time in holidays just playing on my ps~ Makes me wonder if i have made a difference to other ppl's life like jeff has... The night ends with me feeling really lucky that i ever had a chance to know such a good friend. I coudl hoesntly sit here and write more pages of why jeff is an impt friend to me, but since i've wrote about jeff in my tribute to my friends in my end of last year's review post, and i dont' really have the time now, so i won't. hehehe either way~~ JEFF~~ GREAT PARTY!!! and u better not abandone ur vodafone buddy!!! ^__^

Now on to yesterday, went to Sandy's 19th b/d party where she invited my college classmates like nicole, alicia, yvonne, tony, david and talita. hehehe i've honeslty not seen yvonne at all since college~ she's now planning on gettign a house with russel~~ wow~~ and talita too, she's alreayd flatted with michael for 2 years, and michael is asking her to choose her ring... WOW~~ it's so funny, when i think about going from college to uni, altho it's a big change for me.. compared to them it's really nothing, i mean.. they are both living away form home now~~ in a stable relationship.. looking at me.. i really havne't changed at all have i??? yes i know eveyrone have different paths, and i am not saying that i rather be in their situation.. in fact i dont'! coz i am really not ready for that kind of stuff yet. i am just.. overwhelmed??? i mean... i've never thought they'll be thinking about marriage already... Anyway... it was relaly good to catch up with all those ppl, sitting there walking down the memroy lane... i miss macleans.. i miss college ~

*sigh* back to reality, better stop procrastinating~
*lucy bids everyone a good nite while she slowly crawls forward under a huge workload*

Hiiiiiiiii just realize i haven't update for a few days.. hm.. oh well~

Working 2 days in a row is so tiring it's not funny. Yesterday was pretty good thing, coz there were quite a lot of ppl there, (coz everyoen want double pay.. lol) but yesterday my supervisor told me how today was goign to be really busy coz we are understaffed, and we are expecting a lot of cheese samples.. so for the whole day today i was streakign like mad.. and u know what!! the cheeses didn't came in... so while i was in the subbing room streakign like mad.. they were having cruisy time in the filling room -____- well.. at least chandrika was nice.. she came out and helped me finished off my streaking. Actually.. come to think of it.. everyone was really nice to me today except my supervisor -___- it's quite funny.. like.. everytime i leave my workign space to do somethign, i come back and someone've done somethign for me.. like the cleaning guy person stacks the empty boxes for me while i was washing my hands, one of my workmates dumped samples for me, lol.. i came out of the incubator and was stunned for like a sec, it was like.. where's my boxes gone.. ... ok... i am sure i am not makign any sense so i'll just stop blabbing on

btw... i was sooooo stupid today.. i thought 3pm=1300 hours -__- and made a wrong calculating and started streaking early, luckily my supervisor found out pretty quickly, and yea.. she came and check what i was doing like every hour to make sure i wasn't doign anythign stupid... heheh oh well~~ silly me :P

Oh yea... my workmate bought me a kakashi gloves.. LOL, so if ppl see me walkign around with a ninja gloves during winter.. dont' be surprised ;)

Anyway.. i blahed enough, time for my jigsaw of the day ;) have a good easter ppl~

Went to uni early today coz Danny was helping me with mm1....never done matrices before... argh~~ hate it... do i really ahve to learn it??? anyway... since we got my problem sorted in like.. 30mins.. we took a nice walk down to britomart... (ok.. our primary reason was to get nice coffee) heheh but haven' been there for a while... i miss that place ^____^ come to think of it i really shud've bought amazing crepes while i was there.. hehehe... me and my antisocial spot :P

Had lunch with tina today at 2.. she was so sweet, she actually told henry that she wanted to spend time with me alone coz she havne't talked to me for ages... ^___^ isn't she so sweet??? *feel special now* hehehe i have nice girlfriends :P tho i must say i feel guilty about it coz i found out they dotn' get to spend a lot of time together during the week =S sorry henry~ for stealing ur gf for 2 horus today ^^: well.. tina felt a bit bad about it and bought a cookie for him on the way back up to uni...

oh yea... went shopping with tina after lunch.. lol... she and her impulse shopping =P yea.. and i am gonna leave it at that. i did see many pretty pretty earrings today.. and i didn't buy any *proud*.. well i do have a whole box full of it :P i did bought emily an 'emily badge' tho :D

btw.. feeling very spoilt... 4th week into uni... amount of days catching bus home = 0 don't i feel lucky ^____^

wagging statistics =7

Work finished at the record (long) time of 10 hours excluding lunchtime + driving time :S oh well.. it wasn't too bad today... actually~~ i ddi the ENTIRE STREAKING THING ON MY OWN TODAY!! hehehe yup yup.... *proud*

Anyway.. my eyes went scary today, jeff i think u r right.. i must've been somethign at work. U know... my eyes teared up uncontrollably twice today!! @___@ it was rather scary.. and both times is soon after i come out of the building... it's kinda weird... either way my workmates had fun teasing me today -_______- *sigh*

Can't believe it's friday again.. time is flying pass. In a weird mood tonite.. feel like i am trapped amongst all these uni work without a purpose... again... maybe i am just still not use to this stupid workload.. and note i am only taking 3 papers and i am complaining.. I don't know.. maybe i am just too slow.. stayed up till 1:15am this mornign to finish off my bio notes!!! that's insane!! and that's for ONE LECTURE!!! speaking of which.. 1 lec=approx 5&1/2 sides of notes... i am gonna have 'fun' studying for tests and exams :S

Been playign piano quite a lot lately (by that i mean about 2 times a week) i dont' knwo.. normally i play piano when i just dl new sheet music from net or when i am stressed or when i am really bored... so yea... mum even came and ask me if uni was gettgin stressful today -___- oh well`~ she threatened to disconnect me at midnight if i dont' go to sleep early few days ago, now i am sure she won't ^^:

Hm... to be honest.. i think i just have a lot on my mind lately... uni work, my capabitlities, future, friends.. etc etc... i think i want to go to product development side of foodsci now.. it is more 'fun', but having said that, i think i will be disadvantaged gettign an au degree instead of massey... oh well.. i guess i'll find out wont' i ~~ mum just told me today not to 'plan' too hard, just work hard and whatever comes comes right?

BTW~~ just found my next fav song ^^ "Always on my mind" from Kingdom Heart soundtrack ;) hehehe it's on my website now.. so listen to it if u r interested ;)

oh yea.. decided not to go ahead with the market day thing.. the schedule is just too full on thursdays, emily seem reluctant to help, and most of my friends also have very busy schedule on thurdays.. so i figured.. i dont' really need the money anyway so.. IF ANYONE WANT THE WALL SCROLLS! LAST CHANCE!!! get it before EASTER! coz that's when i am returning them!!!! yup yup.. ur LAST CHANCE ^^

Bio lab was so depressing today, 2nd lab we coudln't finish it on time, and it's our last practice lab before the assessments start, and it's not that i haven't prepared it or anything, i HAVE read over my lectuer guide, i HAVE went through the sections in the txtbooks and even ANSWERED the quesitons before the lab.. and i still manage to run out of time. I mean.. at this rate i mite as well as give up on all those note writign in 204, it's not like i am gonna pass the lab component anyway :'( i dotn' know why i am so slow.. i mean... majorty of the ppl do manage to finish JUST in time.... and i mean.. we planned everythign, we made all the slides.. we just ran out of time to look at our slides and draw it in our coursebooks... :s which is bad.. coz that means we dont' actually know how well/bad our slides were. And to make the matter worse, our loop thing was so loose that it was hard to use and they 'ran' out so we coudlnt' get a replacement, and same thign with my lab partner's microscope, it wasn't workign so we had to share one :s and doign microscopy does take a while....... i dont 'knwo.. i AM quite annoyed at this semester's papers. I OFFCIALY DISLIKES ALL MY SEM1 PAPER!! ok.. i know i really shodulnt' be stressed about it seeing how c is just gettign out of her 'stressing hard out about uni' mood...but...but... but... it's like the first time where i can't finish a lab on time (and we are not allow to go overtime) *stress* *stress* maybe i am over confident with my abilities at the start of sem?? i think i am.. i am falling behind....

The day did get better tho.... got a call from Len today ^_____^ *happy* and she mite come and find me tomorrow *happy* ^____^ i haven't seen her for AGES~~~ it's like... it's so hard to meet up with her in uni coz our courses are so different =S oh oh ~~ and GUESS WHAT!! SOMEONE DOWNLOADED KINGDOM HEART OST FOR ME ^_____^ i've been looking for that for AGES~~ hehehe can't wait till tmr when i get my hands on those ;)
*HAPPY* and loook at the time.. 8:45 and no work done yet.. hehe better keep moving ^__^

Work was so hectic today :S apparenlty we found listeria in one of the cheese samples. So now that company is sendign like.. few hundreds extra samples for us to test EACH DAY!!! . =S Well.. we have 2 extra ppl there today, and the head of Listeria Melissa was one of them.. i've actualy never worked along side with her.

Anyway... most of the full time staff were cranky-ish today.. can't really blame them, being under stress for the whole week. i didn't streak today, coz the 'streaker' had to help them do all the extra cheese samples, and since i haven't been taught how to, i had to put up samples today instead. Did lots of cheese today.. and now my finger hurts from breaking the cheese apart.. well.. the worse was when BOTH of the bags of the butter sample i was putting up break :'( along all the panic tryign to save as much butter as i can.. i dropped my pen behind the cabinate *sniff* oh well~~ good thing was i had enough butter sample left (or else i woudl've been in big BIG trouble). In the afternoon, I asked Melissa to teach me how to do the anitibiotics, she seemed suprised when i told her i didn't know how (it's no my fault if my supervisor doesnt' seem to like me and never teaches me anything -___-) anyhow yay~~ i finally know how to do it. and of cousre she saw the shocking 'messy' butter sample...hm.. at least she was cool about it =P. oh well~~ busy day today..... finished at 5:45. *tired*

Oh yea.. recently my eyes has become so sensitive it's kinda scary.. :s it's like.. most days at around 4~6, at certain times my eyes gets really sore it just tears up, each tiem it only last like.. 1 or 2 mins which is fine, doens't bother me that much EXCEPT! if happen to be driving, it's kinda dangerous... :s should i get it checked out?? i don't know.. i think mum's eyes were like this few years back... argh~~ maybe i just use my eyes too much these days?? or maybe it's coz i now wear glasses all the time?!?!?! *shrug*

BTW!! my workmate is so cute.. she was crying for the whole nite when she was watchign the 'Neji' episode.. lol.. wow~~~ she must be the kind of ppl who always cry in movies or somethign.. *shrug* i am too cold-blooded to know what that feels like.. anyway.. enough blah for today~

Random comment: I am ToTaLlY aDdIcTeD to Kingdom heart music ^___^

Saw a freaky car accidents right infront my eyes today @___@ as we were driving back on glenmore drive, this car infront of us just drove straight onto the car that was parked on the side of the road (i think the drivier must've been sleepign or something. And omg~~ that car flipped onto the pedestrian path :S LUCKILY no one was hurt.. well the driver was able to walk out of the car with no injury i can see so... =S so freaky.. i think i am gonna stay off glenmore drive for a while ^^:

Saw sherry today, hehe and gave her 6 episodes of naruto ^___^ u know.. i really miss her hyperactiveness, and how she makes me listen during lectures.. and how she yells at me when i wag :P hehehe oh well~~ at least i am pretty sure i'll see her in bio203 next sem ^^

Anyway.. not in the mood to blah today.. so have a nice weekend ppl ^___^

OK!! been feelign quite guilty about soemthign for days now! i am gonna blog about this and hopefully i will let this go. Right.. remember that day i met up with Nicole? that day when we were walkign into ic, we saw steven and frank and their group of friends. and Frank was asking steven if it was true that he and his ex used to sit in lec and take up one seats. Steven said :"no, who did u hear that from" and frank keep starring at me... ARrrr welll yea i DID told him that, but that was back in the days when they haven't broke up, and i was just telling frank how sweet they were. And yes i realize it's not very nice of me to gossip about other ppl, but i had no intention of upsetting ppl... i talked about this while they were dating, i mean.. surely telling ppl about how sweet a couple is cna't be THAT bad rite?? ok, i know i am trying to talk myself out of feelign guilty... so i won't, coz it IS my fault for having a big mouth and gossip about ppl, and now i am pretty sure Steven will prob never talk to me again... =S Steven.. if u r reading this (and knowing my chaces are about 0.00001) I am deeply sorry, and when u get ur next gf and i happen to bump into u guys again, i promise i'll keep my mouth shut.

Dad left today, lol.. i have a feeling the next month we'll keep hearing complain about how boring tw is :P heheh as usual... dad always says how one day they'll move back to take care of our grandparents when we are old enough, i am sure when that ahppens.. they'll have a lot of adjusting to do.. =P

btw... this is silly.. i work harder in someone else's lecture than anywhere else.. lol... i must be weird =D

Hehehe anyway.. can watch naruto in 2hrs and 30mins ^___^ better start doign work now =D

btw... is it just me or is tagboard not workign for like.. 2 or 3 days now?? i miss my msgs :'(

YAY~~ i got a new pair of jeans ^___^ hehehe i've been wanting a new one for AGES!! (ever since my nice flary one got.. bleached...) hehehe and well, this is the 'present' to myself for getting a new job.. lol.. ANYWAY being as short as i am, the jeans is too long for me again -____- so yea.. have to alter it sometime... *sigh*

BTW!!! can u believe it... i only got like 175 free msgs left @___@ and it's only been like what.. 2 weeks?!?!? HOW DID I TXT OVER 200 MSGS IN 2 WEEKS?!?!?! ok.. i have to start restraining the amount of txts i sent, or else when my 400 free txts for 3 months is over.. i will be DEAD!! uh huh~~ and i haven't make THAT many calls.. i mean i sitll have like 380mins left??? argh~~ well the problem with uni is calling is inconvenient, and when i am home, i just use landlines/msn anyway.. so... don't really get a chance to use my free mins :S what a waste... oh well~~ at least in the mean time... txting is fun ^____^ speaking of which.. i am sure i txts faster than i did 2 weeks ago :P

Oooo at chemmat today, we forgot to save a seat for marcy.. so instead Christine, Marcy and I shared 2 seats.. lol.. and we had plenty of space too =D hahah that was bizaare =P Oh yea.. we are learning stats in mm1 now.. OMG!!!!! i was SOOO BORED!!! ok just went through like 6 week so intense stats, and to listen to all the stuff over again, ARGH~~ i was bored to death, think i mite wag tomorrow =P hehehe yes i know i am bad. ^^

Speaking of wagging, i saw Lisa Lin on the bus today ( the rutherford one who's doing year 1 foodsci this year) hehehe it was kinda funny how I was giving her advice on how to survive year 1 and blah blah blah~~ hehehe it was fun, but i think i was bad in telling her that it's ok to wag.. hm.... hope she wont' randomly call me up one day and blaming her if she got a bad mark coz she wagged or something. i think if that happens i'll just hide.. in a cave or something.. LOL

BTW!! everytime i go to ic to find a computer, i see heaps of ppl waiting for computers... argh~~ waiting for a comptuer space is too troublesome.. how did i have all the patience last year?!?!??! maybe i shud try the bio buildlign next time.. hm...

Dad leaving for tw tomorrow.. and he wont' be back till my b/d :'( oh well~~ i am actually really happy that he tries to get back to celebrate my b/d.... but u know what.. i have a HUGE test on the day AFTER my b/d so i'll be celebrating my b/d with stupid bio notes... =S oh well~~ turning 20 soon.. that's a really scary thought.. reachign the big 2x soon!!! my teenage is over soon.. am i mature enough to handle the 'adult' world???? *shrug* who knows.. we'll see ^___^

Hiiii~~~ how is goign ppl ^___^ sorry, was goign to do an update last night, but it took me WAY!!! too long to do my bio notes.. =S u know!!! it's soooooo annoying!!! last year the most i had to do was to correlate the coursebook with the lecture slides... in normally it's the same thign anyway. this year it's a NIGHTMARE!!! have to correlate coursebook with the lecture slides + the textbooks @____@ while it's good that the lecture slides and the coursebooks is really similar. we've been told that the lectures wotn' give us enough information to do well in this course, we have to read our textbooks... @#%$%#@$@#%#@$#@ this is making 'note making' hell!!! u know!! i spent the WHOLE NIGHT writing notes for ONE LECTURE!!! ='( surely there's a better way!!!! speaking of which, for the past 3 lectures, the reference pages they gave us isn't even the txtbooks. what what are we suppose to do?? find all those reference from the library to make notes?!?!?! i mean!! i thoguth the whole point of buying one expensive textbook is so that we wont' have to find all those other random references... @#$%#$@#

ok.. sorry for complaining again, but i am annoyed!! really annoyed!!!

Ok.. on happier stuff now~~ met up with Nicole yesterday... hehehe it's so good to catch up with college ppl ^___^ and on the way we saw Frank and David as well. hehehe Ooooo and David whos' majoring in Ancient History is learning 'egyptian' as the language this year ^____^ and he wrote my name in egyptian too, it's a mouth, a bird, a door hinge, and 2 reed leaves or somethign .. lol it looks quite funny =D Anyway.. had really nice chat with them.. and they pretty much came up with the conclusion that i've become a lot weirder after uni -____- oh well~~ can't deny that!! :P uni has brought out the 'weird' side of me.. but u know what? i think i am happier now than in college. ^____^ (bio note taking aside)

Hehehe ok.. Jeff just crowned me the 'wagqueen' today.. LOL so here's my acceptance speech
"thank you ppl for ur support, i will continue to strive and wag as many classes as possible, and try to spread the 'wagging disease' around. Hehehe and of course, as part of my duty, i will hide in the most far away places during tests/exams/when report comes just incase if anyone who listened to me to wag come back and want to kill me for it.. LOL "

hehehe wagging is fun ^^ my wagging statistic since start of this year is...1 ^____^

Work finished early at a record time of 4:50 ^______^ hehehe ok.. was streaking ALL DAY LONG! and since streakign dont' require much concentration.. i estimated that i streaked about 500 plates today :P ok... for 8 hours that i worked today the company pays me roughtly $93. LOL honeslty~~ the company pays me like 18.6c for each plate i streak :P kinda sad coz my i earn less than that due to tax...*shrug* oh well~~ :P scratched 2 agar plates today... think it's an improvemtne from last week.. oh yea~~ difference between uni and work. ^^
at uni:
me :"demonstrator, i stuffed up, can i have a new agar plate?"
demonstrator: "sure, use as many as u want. "

at work:
me: *ooops.. stuffed up again, "secretly" hide the damaged agar plate and use another one*

lol... those agar plates are expensive thigns! i think the oxford palam ones are like $1 each and the Aloe Palam ones are $2 each @____@ thinking about it, i worth less than those plates.. lol... at least i dont' get 'discarded' at the end :P

speaking of which.. for the WHOLE day i was looking forward to finished streakign each tray so i coudl go to the dumping room where it's nice and cold ^____^ and Malini ( my supervisor) just had to come and tell the clean-up boy to dump things for me... =S oh well~~ she was being nice i know.. but she stripped me of my happiest time at work :'( heheh ok.. i am weird i know :P

Btw... had to do the controls today... i dont' like doign it coz i'll be acutlaly be in contact with Listeria, i mean, of cousre with gloves and stuff the chacnes of me getting infected is minimal. But still.. ok.. for ppl who know how shocking my fingers looks like will know that i constantly have wounds on my fingers (coz i am mean to myself and dont' drink enough water =P ) so yea.. so today was like.. finished controls *wash hands* *get new gloves* tidy up my work bench and put the plates into the incubator *takes off my gloves * *wash hands* LOL by the end of the day my hands were so dried up and yuck it's not funny -___- so glad i bought the nice hand cream from the waiheke trip..

btw.. i feel like i am a really bad friend.. :s i can' believe it took me 5 days to remember my best friend's drivign test >< and asked her how did it go AFTER SHE'S DONE IT FOR 5 DAYS!!! i am bad aren't i... *guilt* *guilt* never mind.. next time i better write these thigsn down so i dont' forget

It's funny how when u change ur attitude towards something, everything start falling into places. Uni is better now~~ all the classes dont' seem to be that hard anymore (maybe the lectuerers all decided to be mean to us on 1st day and 'scare' us with the workload we have to do).. Lol.. ANYWAY~~ life is good ^___^ i just have to keep up with the optimism while it lasts... lol

BTW someone is spoiling me.. i feel spoit... didn't had to take any buses home this week... speaking of which.. haven't been to britomart for so long ^___^ i love that place.. hehehe one of these random day i am gonna go there on a antisocial trip and just day dream for few hours :P

Oh YEA~~ last nite as i was goign to sleep, i saw a bug on my lamp (the nice touch lamp next to my bed) :S since it was really close to my bed, i moved all my blanket and pillow to the livign room and sprayed on the bug.. and it 'flew' onto my bed... either way the bug enjoyed it's last few moments on my nice comfortable bed while i slept on the couch.. lol. well.. at least i think it did... when i came into the room this monring, i can' t find it anymore so.. assuming it either managed to escape to the outside or it's dead and all shivelled up :P

Hahahahaha feel stupid now.. called up Papaya today and she said market day is not till like 2 or 3 weeks later (not sure if market day is not gonna happen till then, or just she's not putting up a stall till then) either way.. starring at all the posters and boxes in my room.. i feel silly and stupid.. LOL.... probabily a good thing tho.. gives me more like to prepare and since our colour printer went all funny today.. i am kinda glad it's not tomorrow anymore :D

BTW.. had a 'great' start of the day.. first lec of engsci111, 10 assingments, 2 projects, on top of tests and exam... argh~~~ oh well~~ i guess 2nd year is expected to be harder than 1st...

In a better mood about this all today tho ^____^ was 'replanning' my course coz i wanted to drop scigen.. and i got really excited about all the nice courses i get to do next year.... i mean.. if ihave to go through all these boring, hard out papers just to do the stuff i want to do.. it's worth it rite??? . ^_____^ hehehe 2nd year papers!! bring it on!! i am ready for ya ;) ...

Anyway.. decided to buy a new 'diary planner' thing today.. (coz the one i got form tw is.. too small) LOL so i am gonna go and decorate it now ^^ YAY~~~

Uni is getting hard~~~ and i think it's starting to have an effect on everyone i know... =S i dont' know.. maybe it just take a few days to adjust to uni life again??? but lookign at my assingments that i have to do.. and looking at all the very 'vague' notes where the only way to pass the course is to read the textbook... i am starting to feel the stress.... EEEEEK oh well~~ it's not liek ppl haven't warn me about this...

had lab today... i think whoever planned the lab was WAYYY to optimistic about the timing.. 4 parts to a lab.. and the tutor spent like 1 hr blahing on and on about stuff...... and i dont' know.. there was just not enough time... and i got very annoyed at one demonstrator.. when asking him about a question.. he was like "how can u not know the answer? it's in ur textbook, u shud have read ur textbooks alreayd' ok... note: our lab manulas had NO textbook references... and it's the SECOND day of uni!!! hello~~~~~ @#%#@$%#$@!!! anyway.. didn't finish my lab today.. completely missed part 3, =S luckily the labs is not assessed... dotn' know how we are gonna catch up.... and u know~~~ our demonstrator/tutor has to sign us off, and this guy actulaly finished, and the tutor was yelling at him how it wasn't 'good enough' and if he does that to all his 2nd year assingments he'll fail -____- *stress*

oh well~~~ nvm, gonna read my big text book now and be a geek (according to someone i am not geeky enough~ that's y i got yelled at by my demonstrator.. ) lol