Somewhere else i rather be

Sitting here, home, alone, with most of my friends offline, I know... there's somewhere else I rather be.

A friend... a really good friend who has stuck up with me for so many years... her 21st party is now... I know.... I should be there

I can't help but feeling it's all my fault, if I had planned a bit early, I would be there now... the place i rather be...

I can't help but again, feeling guilty.. the best present I could've given to a friend... i chucked it... into the drain....

Loneliness... this is what I deserve... for not being there.. where i wanted to be the most.. where i should be