Head and Heart

My head tells me the sooner it ends the better it is for her. The shorter time she has left means her suffering will be less...

My heart feels guilty that my head is thinking that way, because in thinking that way I am essentially wishing for her death which I don't...

and do....

conflicted

confused

then I realized however I felt, or think has no influence whatsoever on what is going on..

all I can do, is hope that when I make the call to the other end of the world, although all I can hear is the oxygen mask, that my voice still reaches her. That for however short/long period of time she has left, she knows that she is not alone. That love is around her, her children and grandchildren.

That is all that I can wish for... hope for...

Head and heart.