HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST FRIEND GILAINNE!!!

Poor Lenlen has to study on her b/d, dont' stress out too much girl~ you'll be fine. Relax and ENJOY ur BIRTHDAY ^^

I AM OFFICIALLY UNEMPLOYED!!!!

Yesterday was the last day of work... *sniff* so funny how when you are doing things for the last time.. it somehow feels different. *shrug* i slept really late the night before coz i was writing cards (procrastinated till like 11:30pm before i start) finished at around 12:30am.. and then i started procrastinate about sleeping.. one of my worse worse habbits... trying to drag the time before i go to sleep.. coz once i woke up... i have to face the big day???

Anyway i am glad i wrote the cards tho... thanks to pete for staying up with me ^^. oh~~ i have lots of fotos to share, so to ppl who has slow connection... sorry~~ First class was... ok... i was hoping the little kids could finish off 'ode to joy' today... so at least i finish teachign them 1 song before i leave... but yea... slack little kids -____-

Choir... took lots of fotos :D

hsmchoir
HSM choir... conducted by Jen ^^ Jen is one of the coolest person around. She is very few teachers that know how to make a class fun.



me
and there's me in my little corner with the keyboard =P . At then end of choir... i gave little kids lollis.. and they all gave my a goodbye hug~~ aw~~ they are so cute ^^

After that was... assisting all the orchestras... it went as usual... had a nice talk with alex during sectional time while photocopying and sorting music.. lol


alex and me
ALEX AND ME!!! ^^ hehehe Alex is my little sis... don't we look alike too??? i am sooooo gonna miss her... dont' get to see her every sat now =S *sniff* oh~~ she gave me a really relaly pretty earring yesterday. oh~~ thank you alex *hugs*


p
This is our little photocopying area... small, but this is our little 'hideouts' :P


J
This is my photo shy workmate Josephatt... he refused to get a proper pic even after i threatened him that i'll put his pic on the net. So yea... that's him =P too bad anthony wasn't there yesterday, i really wanted a foto of all the assistants this year... oh well~~

Youth choir last... last time i ever going to play bassoon.. and yet i think i stuffed up a lot.. oh well`~ now my orchestra folder is returned, bassoon returned.. all i have is a stupid reed.. lol. it's ok.. i can still make noisy duck sound out of it ;)


stands
This is the pile of stands that we have to battle with every saturday to fit it all in...


mr chan
This is Mr.Chan and me. Mr.Chan is my bassoon teacher, also my senior tutor for 2 years at HSM (not this year tho). He is a really really talented musician, plays the bassoon, oboe, sax, and clarinet... and when he conducts in junior windbands (for 1st year students) he knows all the fingerings for ALL the instruments... WOW~~~ he is also a composer.. most of the music the kids play at HSM are arranged by him. It was a really privilege to be his student as well as to work with him.

After work.. got home and Ssssssssssllleeep. lol... Macleans College 7th form Leavers party at night. it was fun. Lol the burgary alarm went off before the concert as usual :P dot'n know why but it happnes EVEYRTHING SINGLE TIME~~ I only went in to listen at the 2nd half.. coz i wanted to hang around with ppl :P Saw David Liaw there... that was unexpected.. he prob came back to check out all the girls -___- OMG~~ the new music suit looks so pretty and big =S the year after we left... so many more practice rooms.... (lucky ppl) oh~~ and there's SCARY 3RD FORMERS DOING DIP FOR PIANO. i mean Alex did dip for bassoon this year.. and i thoguht it was hard out.. and those ppl are... doing it.. at 3rd form??? (even tho they are only starting to practice for the pieces.. but HARD OUT!!! ) lol... oh yeah~~ Alex and i walked around.. fooling everyone that we are sisters =D, and this include one of the scary 3rd form guy who plays piano really well called Raymond??
Ray: *points to me and alex* "are you two sisters??? .
Alex and I both went "yup"
Ray:" no wonder you guys to alike"
Me:" heheh he is so gullible"
Ray:"what?!?!?"
Alex:"did you know that the word gullible is been taken out of the dictionary?"
Ray:" what? real?? "
and 2 secs later, after seeing we all cracked up.. his face turned really red.. and walked off :D
lol... was i that gullible in 3rd form??? i was prob worse eh~~ lol


macleans orch
hehehe, my beloved school orch which i am no longer part of =S they played well last night.. played gladiator and a cello concerto. I can kind of tell Ms Wallace hadn't been conducing a lot coz of her baby and all... but gladiator music was good. ^^

Oooo so Johnathan yesterday.. my fellow bassoonist ^^ he's 7th form this year.. which means he can dress up... and what did he dress up as??? Gandolf the white

JM


Lol everyone think he looks like god... hahahaha too bad you can't see his pretty ginger hair under all the wig.. hehehe. Ginger hair is pretty... you dont' see ppl with natural ginger hair anymore... Anyway he is moving off to art and design in AUT.. so i mite see him around next year. ^^
Oh`~ and i noticed he was playing the bassoon i played last year... AND HE BROKE IT!!! one of the key came right off... wow~~~ oh well~~. this is funny, coz the bassoon i used this year is the one he used last year... hm....... hope he doesn't have any deadly diseases... if i die of an unknown disease.. i'll blame him. ^____^ btw... renting a wind instrument is so unhygienic... Anyway... it's weird.. today is also the last day he ever going to play the bassoon..

After the concert.. got a call from emily, and head off to Eastern Beach to set of fireworks... ok it wasn't that fun... but the moon was soooo pretty last night... reflecting of the water and all ^___^

Long day yesterday huh~ now everythign is finished... it's back to studying =S *sigh*

Biosci106 ~ biochem exam today... 40% was stressing so hard on the metabolism II part before the exam.. come on~ 6 cycles (not including the little ones) each with unbelievable hard names and structures to memorise... AND GUESS WHAT!! the metabolism II part of the exam was relatively easy, i am not sure coz i actually studied hard out on it, or it was just easy... on the contrary, Gene Expression part which i sort of.. didn't study as hard on coz a) i thought it was easier and b) i spent more time on metabolism. Anyway, that part of the exam was HARD!!!! ok... it's my fault... i dont' know translation (protein sythesis) well enough.... *sigh* oh well~~ should'nt be too bad. Need over 80% in this exam to get A+, yea... i'll be really lucky if i get it.. oh well~~ *shrug*

In the beginning of the bio exam.. like when we can read our exam script for 10 mins. MY NOSE STARTED BLEEDING!!! omg~~ @___@ it's like that calc test nitemare all over again.. thank goodness it was only a little bit... and thank goodness i had 1 piece of tissue with me that was just enough ><>

was on a all time HIGH after the exam... dont' know y... prob just relieve that now i only have 2 more exams to go?? went shopping with mum at night to get stuff, i was sooooooooo high... lol..mum was freaking out... didn't find caramel sauce in supermarket again =S so weird, they have it in every coffee shop, and ppl love caramel, but they jsut dont' sell the sauce in supermarket... oh well~~~ either way.. i am happy for no reason...

Oh~~ got a ride home from amy's mum ^________^ THANKS A LOT!!!

Ooo got this really cool msg from Cleon before the exam.
c is Cleon
l=Lucy
xGy=xgive gd luck to y
Ex=exam
NOW TRANSLATE CLEON GIVE LUCY GGD LUCK 4 EXAM
lol for non-logicians... this is kind of what we learnt in logic this year..

hehehe i actually dotn' know how to translate it.. i know it's cGl, but how do i do 'for' exam?? with &??? so it'll be (cGl & Ex) ??? *shrug* don't think so eh~~ maybe len will know ;)

STRESSING!!! ARGH~~~

Lucy=a girl with bad memory

After lunch today, i 'suddenly' remember that i had injection scheduled at 10:20am... Eeeeeeeeek, so i quicky called the family doctor.. the nurse laughed at me =P lol... anyway.. so we rescheduled it to 1:45. The process of injection hurt more than last time.. but after effect so far is ok... arm is sore... but not as bad as last time.. not yet anyway.

ANyway... itttttttt's ssssssssssssSSSSSSSTRESS TIME
*screams*

Next year... i am gonna write notes EVERYDAY after my lecture =S so i dotn' have to catch it all up at the end >< ..... so she hopes

Randomly read over my recent blog posts, and realize how many spelling errors/typos/grammatical errors are in it. @_____@

*vivi bell down apologitically to her poor readers for her mistakes"

I know i should prove read my posts, but i don't. sometimes it's coz i can't be bothered, and also if i prove read something, i'll end up deleting half of the posts. So yea... COPE PPL :D or else don't read. muwahahahahaha

i am going insane @___@ slept at 5 this morning.. Y?? coz my stupid computer is running the memory test. which is fine, coz i can just leave it.. BUT IT WAS FREAKINGLY LOUD!!! IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT!! so yea.. at 5am, i decided that i am not gonna take it anymore, and turned the computer off... *yawn* Woke up at 10am, and computer still kind of stuffed up... well it's minor.. dad fixed it in 5 secs -___- but by the time i decided to ask him for help, it was like.. 3pm.. yeah~~~ i am soooooooo behind on my notes... =S must study!! MUST CREATE NOTES!!!!

I CAN'T BELIEVE MY COMPUTER IS STUFFED UP AGAIN... and it's THE SAME THING HAPPENING AGAIN!!! like.. as i was usign it last night, it just suddently restart, and everytime window is loaded up it just restarts again and again ><

it' happnes LAST TIME!! except it didnt' even get to load windows before it restarts.. and that's y we got a new mother board.... SO HOW COME IT'S SCREWING UP AGAIN?!?!?! SOMEONE TELL ME?? PLZ.. I WANT TO KNOW!! is it a virus?? or is it the hardware???

We even try to reformat it today. AND IT DIDNT' WORK1! it just said the system is stuffed up......... =S

i m very annoyed!!! very very annoyed!!!

PHIL FINISHED!!!!! YEAH~~~ yup.. had the 50% test today.... not bad. Not too sure about the tranlation parts.. which tkaes up 2 questions out of 7 -_____- yea.. what the heck.. i know i passed the course so yea... LOL

Oh yea... our lecturer for phil, Dr. Tanaka ALWAYS uses examples with penguins.. and when i saw the word penguin on the test.. i almost laughed.. lol.... this time was somethign like.. all intelligent penguins do not liek cigarrets, and the tobacco company annoys them or somethign.. yea... BIZARRE!!

Hm... What else happened todya... Ooooo saw Rainbow on the bus today.. haven't seen her all sem.. so it was nice to catch up with her.. Find arts ppl are lucky, get their own studio.

Oooooooooo Munch mart sells 'polo' bread. ^_____^ for ppl who dont' knwo what it is.. it's just a bun with nice sweet crispy layer on top. hehehe YUM~~~ but it's $2.50... such a rip off... oh well...

Anyway.. today's been uneventful.. dotn' feel like blogging so there. ^^

Marcy and my little dream of the future:
to open a shop full of earrings. funky pretty earrings, design by Marcy and me... hehehe

In honestly truth, it's about time that there's a shop just for earrign shoppers like me ^^ hehehe ok.. i am obsessed.. i know ;)

Hm... so much of 'not going to update much' eh~~ :P this is bad... everytime i go on ic.. it's like BLOG TIME!!! checked all the blogs, well the ones i can remember on the top of my head anyway.

Physic test was.... ok i guess, didn't have time to check. but i did know how to do most of the questions (except the one where it tell us to draw a diagram on how a plan 'earthed' before landing) ha! yea... think my plan looks like a ... distorted bullet... oh well~~ =P tho it was so evil, THEY HAVE US STUFF IN KCAL INSTEAD OF KJ @____@ and i checked the formula sheet twice and couldn't find the conversion thing. THANK GOODNESS randomly this year i started looking at the nutrition facts on food products so i roughly know how to convert... i used 4.13 in the test when it's actually about 4.18... oh~~ close enough. if they take marks of me for that... i'll be very VERY mad!!!

Addictied to green tea... more specifically "ku tao" green tea, yup tw brand. ^____^ 'apparently' green tea are healthy, but considering i stuff 150kcal into myself just on green tea alone, it's not that healthy is it??? =P ok.. yes i know.. it's the sugar ;)

Had a HUGE breakfast this morning... had donuts and various buns grandma made + i made myself a nice avacardo milk. YUM!!!! hehehe, love it ^_____^ now i am so full, note it's 11:30, i am suppose to have lunch at 1.... dont' think i can finish my lunch today.... oh well, eat it after chem lab.

Have last phil lecture in 30mins... oh~~ that's means no more random examples of britney and victoria beckham and penguins, from the wacky jap lecturer... lol... i dotn' know what he is trying to prove... constantly trying to making britney into penguin =P I like this lecturer better even tho no one else agrees... *shrug* i have weird taste.... I like ff9 and no one else likes it =S it's a good game!! y does no one appreciate it???? *sniff* poor vivi

Random Thought: does everyeon from rangitoto college really like their old school or somethign? i have seen so many of those jackets already... hm.......

Anyway, saw anne on the bus... and she was tellling me how she was lookgin at our F1 fotos, and how all the boys were so cute back then..... hm..... and then we went onto thinking about anita and all. HEY!!! LETS HAVE A REUNION!! HONESTLY!!! it's about time... rite??? most of us are still here, except honour and anita!! if we get those 2... we have the complete set ^____^ what do you ppl think????

Random stuff to do during summer holiday
*alter my new jeans -______-
*get full liscense (eeeeeeeeek, hope i am not gonna fail... i have a feeling i will tho)
*finish ffx-2
*finish ffViii
*find ffIx and play it again ^^ go vivi!!!
*oh~~ get a job ^^

job searchign now is... pointless... can't start work till dec... no one wants me now~~~ ><

Got Chem marks back.........33/50... *depressed*. Ok i AM lucky that i passed, but still... wishi had done better... class average is 24 something. OK last chem test... i got 43/50, that's a whole 10 mark better than this time.... NEED TO WORK HARDER.

Ok... anaylsis of my marks so far
bio106 49.28/57
phil101 49.50/50
phy160 29.60/32.5
chem120 22.8/30

YEs!! how can i get so bad for chem??? and i thought i was good at chem... uni chem is annoying and boring and irrelevent. ok... so assuming i got 12/15 for lab, + 4 for BC 9since i missed out twice i think) that's 38.8/50. SO if i want to get A+, i'll need to get 88.4% or highter.....HA!! ok impossible...... so 80% or higher to get an A.... or 72% or higher to get A-.... think i'll aim for A- ;) lol..

Random comment.. hey~~ i just have to get 0.5 marks for phil to pass ;) but to get A+ which is like 95% or something, i'll need......... 91% for the test....eeeeeeeeeek according to david the 3rd test is hard... ok.. i'll start cramming tomororw, after tonite's test.

Random thought, y shodul i care about my marks? not like i need the grades -____- as far as i know, the best thing you can get for gettgin good grades is a piece of paper that 'recognises' ur good mark... yea... as if that's good for anything.

Oh yea... was going to do summer, so i get engsci111 out of the way... apprently it's easier in summer school, and apparently my capability in calculus is... very limited ^^; But yea... if i do that, i'll only have 2 papers to take in sem1 next year, so yea... there goes that idea. But i found out that i could do bio352 sem 2 next year, which means i dont' have to do chem240 nor scigen201 just so that i can do 1 part 3 paper next year.... Ok... this must be confusing... here's my plan for next year ;)

Sem1
biosci204
chemmat211
engsci111

Sem2
bio203
chem230
foodsci201
biosci352

wait... just realized how hard out it'll be for sem2 next year @_____@ that's....4 LABS!!! no to mention foodsci labs are once a week,..... may need to replan.....argh~~

ok.. option 2, instead of doing biosci352 in sem2, do chemmat463 in sem 1, which doesn't seem to require any prerequisites.... oh figure it out after exams..... wished i had planned my year 1 coures differently... oh well

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Couldn't sleep last night... don't know why, and it's not coz of the test. =S walked around uni like a zombie today coz of lack of sleep =P Anyway, went to city after chem to get something for emily, and went for lunch while i was there, heheh nice vietnamese grilled chicken on rice =D again, amazed by my own appetite... i finished the ENTIRE THING!! wow~~ freaky.... in fact, i think i amazes my grandma everyday, she says 'ha, eating again? r u still hungry?' like at least 3 times per day -_____- but then my grandma's appetite is... tiny!!! like at dinner, when mum tell grandma to try something, she ALWAYS refuses. As if putting food on her plate is torturing her or something. Food is suppose to be enjoyed not endured!!! on that note... i really need to start exercising ><>

Random Stats:

Since i started blogging (8 nov 2002), i've posted 213 times, typed 39658 words, and u know what? that' average of 1 post per week @____@ hahaha, i have been pretty slack huh~ =P

ANNOUNCEMENT!!!

due to up coming exams + test, i regret that i wont' have as much time updating this blog, so to my wonderful wonderful blog readers, i recommend checking this site once a week MAX. i assume i will do random updates when i am procrastinating, otherwise, i really should study. Furthermore, after exams i'll be in tw till 8th dec, and during the time i am in tw, i dont' know how accessible i can get to use a computer. So i apologise in advance for lack of updates, and promise i'll do more updates when i get back. ^^

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Just did the random cecil survey..... omg~~ the questions are... RANDOM AS!!!!
Q: "does the usage of cecil define status in the university" ?!?!?!?!?!
Q:"do you feel playful when using cecil" ?!?!?!?!
Q:"When using cecil, does the world of the webpage become more real than the real world" ?!?!?!

WHAT THE?!?!?!?! who came up with those random questions??? i am curious... really... Ooo i am using cecil, does that make me of a 'higher' profile than the person next to me?? OF COURSE NOT!!! stupid survey!!

GUYS STINKS!!! ok.. rephrase. GUYS WHO SMOKE STINKS!! =s

Ok... the guy that fixes my comptuer came to my room yesterday, for like 20mins max... and after he left... MY ROOM STUNK!! REAL BAD!!! like, male odour + cigarrete ><>

Speaking of my computer... this is such a huge mystery. The guy took my computer home, and everytime he opened it, IT WORKED!!! i dotn' know how many times he tried, but IT WORKED!! so he came to my house, to see what's wrong with it, and IT WON'T START AT ALL?!?!?! is there somethign wrong with my room??? like all electircal stuff goes wrong in there, INCLUDING MY MP3 PLAYER which now has really have connection to the batteries, and stuffes up really easily >< me="computer" back ="(">

Short update last night coz the font was screwing up, and knowing me, i am too stupid to figure out how to turn it back.. so yes... i'll do a longer update now.

Woke up at 6 today... and went right back to sleep... TOO TIRED!!! ok still not used to the new room.. i dotn' know if it's coz the position of this room, can hear everything next door, or the fact the next door is just a really crackly noisy room (that's my old bedroom btw) Anyway.. emily slept late last night.. which means i slept really late, coz of the floor crackingly. Guess i have no right to complain, since emily been sleeping in this room for like.. 8 years... and come to think of it.. she never complains about me sleeping late. Either she is on of those ppl that can sleep straight away after lying on the bed, or she is just too nice to comment and got used to it eventually... oh well~~ so anyway... as the result didn't go to bio... mite as well.. 8 hour day is a lot easier than 10 ><

Ooo on the bus Shelina sat next to me. Hm.. Shelina is on one of Steven's TANZA friends. She actually remembered my name, coz i didn't remember hers, which i really should. Hm.. she was weargin a really short skirt today,, on a windy day.... right..... but anyway, as i was sittign next to her, i can understand why all the guys think she is hot. In a way i feel sorry for her, obviously she is one of those ppl that actually make herself all pretty before she leaves the house everyday, and to think of the kind of things ppl say behind her back *sigh* Life is funny, i wonder if she'll be criticised as much if she wasn't so 'hot' i mean, the greater the expectation, the greater the disappointment right?

Hm... anyway... wore skirt plus boot today, coz the weather before i leave the house was extremely windy and it was raining!!! ><>

Oooo Steve sat next to me in physic (the one that looks like Paul, well it's ok now, he changed his hair colour, so i can actually tell them apart) , he always sat in a row behind me... Ok. on friday, he sat next to me, and i thought i was prob sitting on his seat... so i moved a row down today .. and he was still choose to sit next to me. Hm... he must randomly decide to be nice. Do i look that pathetic and lonely in physic??? been pretty much alone for the whole sem during physic... *shrug* i rather sit by myself than sit with a large group of ppl that i hardly know, and try to fit in when they don't want me to! .. anyway, it's nice to have someone to pass notes with. ^^

Oh yes!!! i forgot to mention how sweet Tina is ^______^ Hm... on Monday, i was studyign for chem in IC, and Tina came and gave me a nice donut... ISN'T SHE THE SWEETEST ^___^ *hugs* thanks Tina ;)

Oooo so happy, yesterday i finally found an 'mp3 download' of "Melodies of life"... hehehe i had a random urge of listening to that song... actually the song isn't that great, the lyric sucks (the english one anyway) the volcalist can't sing well, and... the music isn't that great anyway.. But i like it coz it reminds me of the game ^^. everytime i listne to it, i can see little vivi bouncy around, and princess garnet and zidane walking around ^__^ love that game... durign the summer holidays, i think i'll buy a copy and play it again, that is if i can find it =O

Found lots of random scores of FF music ^__^ *happy* speaking of which... i used to have a huge pile of ff music... can't find it anymore ><>

random comment: Microsoft Equation 3.0 is so fun!! i wish we have it at home.

Tina just gave me a Starbucks nutritional value site last night... =S

Caramel Machiato, tall, 240 Cal

White choc Mocha, tall, 410 Cal

Fraps, tall average from 200~400Cal

Chocolate Muffin, 450 Cal

OMG~~ ok... the recommended daily intake is about 2000 Cal... so say random you decided to go to Starbucks for a morning tea.. or eve breakfast.. that's like 800~900Cal.. that's HALF of the daily intake @_________@ yea.. ok... think that's the last time i am buying muffins from starbucks ><

For more info.. check out http://www.starbucks.com/retail/nutrition_freshfood.asp

=S scary

Speaking of coffee, my parents always have a cup of coffee at least once a day, and i mean, they properly brewed their coffee, in fact i think we have like 4 different coffee machine at home. Now they just use their espresso machine. Anyway, i drank some of mum's coffee yesterday, and to my surprise i didnt' find it that bitter. Remember last year when i drank it, i got a massive headache, and i hated the bitterness so much. This could only mean one thing...i am a lot more coffee tolerant than i used to... must be stupid uni... *sigh* getting about 6 hours sleep just isn't enough, need coffee to keep me awake. And on a normal uni day basis, i only drink a small can (the one u can purchase from rec center.. hehehe no need to line up for coffee) that' isn't much.. but either way, for the first time in my life... i understand y parents always have their cup of coffee each day..... IT'S NICE ^____^ maybe i shoudl work in a coffee shop.. hehehe now that my options are open ^^ Oooo Amazing Crepes are lookign for staff, and i am tempted... BUT i think it's still too early to look for jobs.... and the MAIN reason is coz i still haven't typed up my CV ><>

Anywya....... going... to get myself a nice drink before chem ^^

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Ooooooo hehehe Mike was my demonstrator today.. hehehe, he was subbing for someone else. Hehehe, funny... out of 1 tutor and 4 demonstrators in our lab.. i think only 1 was there today, rest were sick.. (as mike pointed out) hehehe, ooo but i actully like the tutor today, she was my tutor for bio101 lab last sem.. hehe she's cool. ^^ Ooo heheh mike is a good demonstrator :P ppl looked satisfied after he was helping them with whatever problems they had.. hehehe . Oh~~ and he was nice.. checked on me like every 5 mins.. lol.. just in case if i screwed up ;) which i kind of did.... *ssssssshhh* . Ricky got really confused on the bioplot today... again.. partly my fault... coz our graph looks... shockingly non linear :P so i had to 'alter' a few values.. and.. well i think he got confused between the 1st and the 2nd set of data. *shrug* either way he got it in the end... finished a bit late tho.. doesnt' matter. Not like i had anythign else to do anyway. Last lab today... amazingly didn't feel as sad as i did last sem. =S Last sem i had nice lab partners, Janice and Daisy, and of course Sherry. Ricky is ok.. as a lab partner.. i mean.. he does whatever i tell him to do.. hehehe, very obedient ^____^. Better than my phy one.. i was actually happy at the last lab.. coz i dont' have to work with her again... i mean.. who like workign with someone who.. makes no attempt to make friends with you, and when u talk to her.. she like.. 'huh' or just ignores you, -___- . I think i blogged about this, but last time i was telling her how we shoudl go and check the values from teh book, and she completely ignored me coz she was texting.!!!! that's the last time i'll never be her lab partner. Still think Daisy is my all time fav lab partner, =S i was soooo excited to find a nice new friend who's doing food sci.. and she just left me :'( hope it's not coz i scared her away... oh well~~

Anyway....... going....... nite nite ppl ^^

hihi ppl~~ had a really easy day today.. only 1 class + oasis.
Oasis was ok... lost 0.5 marks due to stupid 1% thing... i don't know y they took that mark off... it even said consistent with (b) and my value in (b) was exactly correct... *shrug* like i care.. it's prob like 0.5% or something. Phil was... interesting...NOT! hahaha.. at least the lecturer is still enthusiastic.. even tho no one else seem to care. Tho he was excited that he get to set the test, so he was giving us hints... lol... he was like "i dot'n know why i am telling you this, i set the test btw *hint hint*, so i dotn' know why i am telling you this... so yes i'll leave it at that *hint hint* lol

CHEM TEST WAS A KILLER!!!!! @___@ think i did bad in it.. it was long, and hard, and... well.. wont' be suprised if i failed... oh well~~ there's always exams =S Talked to Marcy on the way home.
L:"how was the test?"
M"it was alright, how about you?"
L:"shocking, horrible, it was so hard"
M"really? oh~ there were bits where i found it hard, and it was pretty long for a test, i finished it in like 45mins"

....... difference between normal ppl and genius huh~ -___- if i finished the test in 45mins.. that would be considered a short test for me -____-

Hm... i shoudl be more careful about the stuff i write down here, yesterday emily complained coz i wrote 'bad' things about her. Mum complained coz i wrote "stupid mum" -______- since when did they start reading my blog anyway.... besides... the one about emily... it wasn't bad was it??? coz...it was her good intention.. nothign bad... =S in mum's case...er... ok... i admit the wording wasn't very nice... i shoudl rephrase it.. Coz i have a very wise mum, yup yup. She gives me the wisest advices... ^^ hehehe

The sem is ending fast... so much to do... so much work to catch up =S running out of time. Oooo, met up with Josephatt in the morning before my 8am lec coz i am goign to his 'office' to buy stuff. So i waited there 10mins in the cold.... and our convo was... hm.. so i'll see you there at 4:30... hm... ok....... -_____- what the!!!! didn't i figure it out last night... that 4:30 is a good time???? *weird* oh well~~ hehehe he doesn't look very awake in the morning :P

Hm... i am sure at the end of the this sem...... my GPA will go DOWN!!!!! =( But i just read the course info yesterday... apparently all i need is average of B on my 3rd year... hm... so that means i coudl get all C's till end of year 2.. and just work hard on the 3rd year... hahaha
YEAH~~~ PARTY TILL THEN ^________^


Anyway... shoudl do phy... oasis tomorrow. ^^
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Hehehe did magnetism in phy today, and our lecture showed as pretty aurora pictures..... ^________^ i wanna go to see it too!!! (some distant dream... but achievable) hehehe in fact, i asked my mum to come with me when i graduate from uni... and despite the fact that the temp will be like... -20 degrees.. she still agrees to come with me =D heheh isnt' she nice ;) tho she reckons i woudl 've found someone else to go with by then. *shrug* who knows... have to start saving up. ^^

Went to lunch with Emily today.. had amazing crepes.. yum~~ anyway.. they are actually looking for staff... should i?? i am tempted... but hm.. i can't start workign till dec... and besides. have to re write my cv... coz.. well.. too many computer formatting... it's ALL?LOST ;'( and my last one was good too... oh well (well.. not good enough to get me a job that is)

Oh yea.. as i was putting money into the parking payment machine thing, saw dan walked passed... lol... what are the odds eh~~ =P he was on his way to Diakoku to have ramen or something.. hehehe feel a bit guilty tho, coz i was kind of late for my lec.. and ppl who know me will know that when i stress... i am incapable of carrying out a normal conversation.. lol... in fact i think all i said was... i am late.. i am late.. argh... i am late... oops.. hehehe.sry ;) nice to see him btw.. very rare event ^^

Chem test tomorrow... that could only mean one thing... hehehe Lucy is blogging in attempt to procrastinate =P hehehe, ok.. chem is boring, chem is hard, chem is non-sense, chem is stupid, y do i have to take chem?!?!?!? WHY?!?!?! lol... yea that's just random

Anyway, stupid mum... gave me so much to think about last night, about grandparents and stuff. Ok.. this is the situation, my grandma has parkinson disease, which means she isn't very mobile at all. It's really rather sad... because our family don't really let her go out much anymore, coz of the inconvenience. Sometime next week, there's her drawing teacher's art exhibition which she really wanted to go. However, my grandpa can't take her coz he is still recovering from the car accident he had from last year. (which means she can't carry her from the wheel chair to taxi or whatever.) They just recently got a new maid (from Indonesia i think) and since she's new, we can't expect her to take care of grandma on her own. i mean what if she get lost... her chinese isn't that great anyway. So in order for grandma to go to this art exhibition, my uncle (who lives with my grandparents) have to take the day off to drive her around, so he isn't very happy about it. My aunty is also not very happy about it coz with the maid out of the house.. she has to do lots of housework and stuff.

*sigh* this is the dilemma with our family back in tw for years now... prob ever since we came to NZ. Mum asked me if i were them, would i give a little sacrifice to let grandma to have a day which she'll enjoy. Without thinking, i would say yes.. y not!! but if i was my uncle or aunty, i might think otherwise. Of course they want my grandma to be happy, but they've been giving, and taking care of them for soooo long... they are probabily exhausted and tired. Sacrificing one day isn't much... but it's a lot when it's the 50th time, or even 100th time.

On the other hand, it's really sad if grandma can't go. Honestly... she has no life now!! she can't write, she can't draw(one of her passion) becoz her hands shake so much), she can't go out coz it's inconvenient, and no one will let her! oh.. and she can't really talk properly too.. (depending on the day, sometimes she's relaly good, but sometimes her words are really 'mushy'. And i think her eyesight isn't that great now either.. she just had surgery on one of her eyes. =S Sounds like a living hell to me, but it's probably as bad for other family members to, having to take care of someone, constantly worried if she'll fall etc etc...

I think this is y dad goes back to tw so often now... he's the elder son, and traditionally, he shodul be the one taking care of grandparents. He talked to grandma last night.. trying to convince her to think about other ppl, and dont' cause such a big trouble for other ppl. And after many failed attempts to convince her. He told her somethign which i thought was cruel. he said "look at urself, u dont' look as great as u were before, why woudl you want to go out and change ppl's impression of you, woudlnt' you want ppl to remember you as one pretty lady who doesn't need the wheel chair??? " my heart churn when i heard mum said this.. ok.. my grandma is one of those ppl that really care about image... this would've hurt her feelings ALOT!!! but can u blame my dad for saying such harsh words?? when his bro complains to him about all these, and he knows that he shoudl be the one over there doing things for his mum, not his little bro and especially not for 9 years!!! The fact is... all of us want grandma to go!! but non of us have the right to tell uncle to do this for grandma!! coz we are not him!! we are not the one that has to do the sacrificing, it's easy for us to say, but not easy for him to do!!

The fone call didn't end with a conclusion, so we dont' know if grandma change her mind about going or not. But mum told me to be good to grandparents when we go back this year... and, well.. she said after i graduate.. dad and her are prob going back permanently to help and do their duty as son and daughter in law... and i think they should!

If i ever get parkinsons, i think i'll either kill myself, or go to a resthome!! i woudlnt' want my existance to become a burden to ppl i love... but then if i do have the disease.. woudlnt' i want to surround myself with the ppl i love????

Work today, i woken up and both of my jeans and shoes are... still wet!! so for the 1st time ( i think it's the 1st time) in 3 years, i wore a skirt to work.... lol.. yes.. very inconvenient ><>

One thing worth commenting while teaching is.. remember that phone call i had to make for work? the one about one of the kid falling behind... He came today and played as perfectly as all the other kids ^_______^ omg~~ GOOD ON HIM!!! he was sooo behind before the break.. and now everythign is good ^^ *happy*

At tea break today, Alex was commenting on how a guy she knows is so shy around girls. They are 5th formers btw... so it's prob right for their age *shrug* then Josephatt said somethign that got me thinking for the whole day... "i don't see you as a girl, i see you as a person" I mean.. that's soooo true in our age... the boundaries between girls and boys are... broken... almost. I mean i remember back in 4th form... guys are like a totally difference species to us... sure we talked to them, but back then.. guys weren't really 'friends' they were just 'classmates'. And of course that changed after the study tour, when for the first time i coudl make a normal conversation with guys better than girls... think howard did a lot of boundary breaking for me too.. but ok.. even now... i see my friends as friends... i still draw a very distinct line between the sexes ... Like i can do so much more things with girls... i dotn' mind sharing food, hugging, linking arms with ppl as long as u r a girl... and everytime if i have to take sides... i always side with the girl despite of the issue or circumstances... am i just weird or is this the norm for everyone else??? ok... i really wish i coudl continue with this issue but at 12:24am, my brain is just not working...

btw... uni is definately bringing out the weirdness in me... took another random drive to bucklands beach today after work, it's actually pretty today even tho it was really cloudy... hehehe i am random...

btw.. me driving with boots on is potentially dangerous =P stupid shoes better dry soon!!!

STUPID RAIN!!!! both of my jeans are in the wash... both of my easy walking shoes are wet. So what am i left with today? stupid long skirt and my new boot (which i wore on tuesday, and gave me huge blisters). *sigh* well.. ok.. it is the best combination i have against raining days... boots doesn't soak up water... and skirt don't reach the ground... but eek... walking down stairs with boots are weird... and walkign upstairs with skirt is... awkward =P (stupid jeans and shoes... DRY!!!! ) lol

Oh yeah... went shopping yesterday... hehehe bought an $10 pair of jeans from glassons =D i have to say it's really normal... still like my huge flary one better.. but hey~~ it's $10 ^^ cheaper than the pair of earrings i bought for $14.95, but it's so pretty... Wore it today.. and mum think it's weird i only wear it on one side... lol at first she thought i lost the other one already.

We also bought dad's very late 50th b/d gift yesterday, i was trying to find a game that's compatible with the wheel thign that he bought... and... can't find any... but then we saw this flight simulation game (think dad likes aircraft games) so yea.. hope he likes it.. if not.. i'll just exchange it.. lol (love the EB 7 days return policy) =D And his response was.... "Good... cool... " and walks off -_______- trust him to show some enthusiasm .. lol

Eeeek work tomorrow... again. HAve to teach them ode to joy tomororw >< *annoyed* and my bassoon is sounding funnier everytime i play... oh well~~~ counting down to end of work very soon =S ok.. i know with all the complaints about work, ppl will think i hate my job.. but it's not entirely true... i jsut hate the 1st session when i have to teach... and i stresses about it... but everytime after the 1st session... i relaly enjoyed the rest of it... and the ppl there are so nice. *sigh*... i'll miss that place....

Fact: i am very lucky to have the nicest sister in the world
Fact: We share an unreplaceble bond... i coudl not ask for more from my sister.
Fact: Sometimes Emily can be overprotective.
Fact: When she feels that i have been unjustly mistreated... she yells at the person who's involve, if she knows them
Fact: When good intentions turn into a burden? what shoudl one do?

Ok... this is what happened, I was a bit angry at TC for not informing me about events and stuff. Ok.. maybe i think too much... but i know my presense there mite disturb some ppl (not my fault ok) But joined anyway, coz i want to go back to a group that i love so much 4 years ago, but everything has changed, i dont' know, i used to feel like i was doign somethign good for this community, and the feeling that everyone is workign towards a good cause... everything has changed...... I told emily about it (the not telling me about events stuff)... and she send a msg to one of the old commitee saying "TC made my little sister cry, and you guys shoudl be more responsible and blah blah blah" @________@ OMG~~~~ now what i am going to do???

A) i wasn't crying!!!! i was COMPLAINING!! ok... coz if they do have a problem with me being there, then i dotn' want to be there anyway. So I assumed when they didnt' tell me about stuff, it's my sign to leave (could be just them being disorganised), i don' tlike the group enough to want to make a huge deal out of it. But obviously i deserve to feel disappointed and left out right? thus the complaint

B) Her whole statement makes me feel like a cry baby, like i can't handle anythign on my own, and need my big sister to sort it out for me.... *annoyed* I can sort it out if i want to!!! but like i said!! i dont' want to be at a place if there's ppl that dont' want me to be there.

C) when she told me that she yelled at the person... i was really frustrated with her.. i honestly know that she did it out of good heart... she was just... complaining on my behalf... but!! what the hell am i suppose to do now??? now that everythign in TC will think that i am a cry baby (which i am not!!!! =S) she got upset when i yelled at her for doing something stupid...... *sigh* Really i know she means no harm... but she shoudl really think about the consequences..... it's not the first time this kind of things happens... *sigh*

And there ends my complaint...guess i better have a good talk with her tonight... at the end of the day, we are still sisters.. and we still love each other...

When good intentions turn in to burdens:
One carries the guilts she does not deserve,
One carries the consequences she did not need to carry.
The world is a strange place,
Making good deeds go wrong...
But as long as our hearts are pure,
Any frustrations can be resolved.

ok... my writing capabilities has definatly becoming worse =S

My MP3 player is working again. ^^ for a while i thought it was broken... 2 days after i got it =S was really depressed about it. And when i was fiddling with it last night, hehehe i realize i just formated it wrong... lol feel so blonde =P

At IC again, waiting for Emily's class to finish. ^^ she's so nice... she arrange her class so that we can go home together.. since i finish lab at 5, she took the 4pm class... and since lab finish early... that's y am here, blabbering on and on again =P judging by the counter... ppl are losing insterest in my blog again =P it's ok... i get bored of it too =D

But i must say i am soooooo happy that i started blogging. REading back to old entries is interesting, see how much i have changed (not much.. but i have) and remembering all the important stuff that happened, and how i felt towards certain things etc... And to think that blogging started (by tina's influence) and it was kind of a substitute for my old site which i can no longer excess coz of java. Hehehe i must say i used to a lot more creative in terms of the stuff i write.. heheh can't help it if my life is boring right??? =P

well it's not boring to me... but it's not very exciting/interesting either =P i enjoy a simple life. ^^ btw... i envy ppl who can ferry to uni... so much luxury. apparently they can see sunrise in the morning........ instead of being stuck in traffic... looking at car exhaust......lol

Have another earring obessions, i saw this really really nice earring, but it only comes in 1, and it was $22... with that price i normally can buy 2 pairs... that's 4 against 1... yea... so didn't buy it... going back to tw anyway, there's lots of pretty ones there ^^ (tho they dont' last very long)

Ooooo i've been searching for a sleeve thingy like rinoa's for.... 4 years??? and yesterady i saw a sleeve at wild pair... but it was in a ugly green colour...... oh well~~ maybe i'll find a good one in.. another 4 years eh~~ =P

Btw~~ mindy's haiku is funny =P
Anyway... going... emily's class ending soon. ^____^

YEAH~~ got a new eftpos card... all new and shiny, and that lady didn't charge me anything. =D isn't she nice... lol.. went to bank at 9:00 this morning... she's prob still in a good mood. lol being early in the morning and all... hehehe.... she also introduced the student account to me... a student account?? i never knew there was one.... but then i dont' see the difference tho, coz well.. my dad had 'connections' so i wasn't paying any fees anyway. But mite as well change it eh~~ lol i'll think about it ;)

ooooo a cute guy was sittign next to me in physic.. and most amazingly... HE HAS THE SAME IN CLASS HABIT AS ME... @___@ ok... at the start of the class.. i was reading that student account brocher, and he was reading craccum... then i finished and started sleeping... lol so did he........ LOL hahahaha hehehe actually i saw him 3 times today... once at phy, once at chem (he was sitting in front of me) and once he just walked pass... but someone he 'de-cuted' himself the 2nd time round. lol...... *shrug* maybe he just have a good right side view =D

Hm... ok.... i feel like a huge light bulbs tossed around 2 couples today. hehehehe first i went shoppign for sherry's present with tina... and henry came along... ok they were.. tickling, pocking, feeding and holding hands together all the way.... hm... yes definately feel like a light bulb, and then they went off to subway for lunch (i had already eaten) . So i went to IC lv0 to find len.. coz i knew she'll be there..... lol.... and yea... they were playing sim 2... Ron was tryign to create a 'gilainne liew' *cough cough* lol.. and when i asked if he was going to make a ronald liew, and make them fall in love and make lots of kids... he just smiled.... hahaha, must be excatly what he had in mind........ my goodness... they are so married =D

oh yeah.... the weather is shocking today... y is it everytime i need to go to the bank the weather is...... bad??? and this time round i refused to wear my long skirt, especially in a windy day... so instead.. my wonderful flary jeans which i am too short for got soaked.... it soaked up like... 20cm of water... that's just above my ankles.... oh~~~ and my new shoes that i bought form the no.1 shoe warehouse is completely not water prove... so yup... pretty wet =P make note.. next time at least wear a different shoes.

in the past few days i am suddenly so happy to be single, .... hehehe, no restriction, so much freedom, .. lol... was talkgin with anne, and she agreed with me on that.... it's like.. now when i go to class, i just go by myself... dont' meet up with anyone or anything (except for chem.. coz there's only 1 chem class... and i sit with marcy =D) it's sooooo free... i can choose to go to which ever class i feel like in the morning... choose to sit wherever i want, i can go out to lunch with whoever i feel like .. myabe i am just lazy... i dont' know =P hehhee anyway.. happy is good right?

HAPPY 23RD BIRTHDAY TO MIKE!!!!!1

hehehe had so much fun today, went out with the tour guys coz it's MIKE'S BIRTHDAY. hehehe hope he had fun today. We gave him a t-shirt (which we designed... well mostly dan and jeff designed it) which had "self existance is purely based on self perception" (mike's own quote) at front, and a slightly dodgy picture of the female anime character at back with "yea rite" on it... lol. Mike's reaction to the t-shirt was.. *laugh laugh* and refuses to wear it =P hehehe we'll get him to wear it one day!!! Oh~~ and Jeff and I found out that perception is actually an important issue with that female, i mean wow~~ coincidence.

Oh yeah.. mike shouted us for lunch... which was nice of him, but at the same time, i felt kind of guilty... it was HIS birthday, we were suppose to all pay for his lunch.. not the other way round... hm.... and just remember, we forgot about the cake ><>< *eeeeeeek* must be more organised next time.

STUPID ATM ATE MY EFTPOS CARD TODAY. and i didn't even do anythign, i think the wheel thingy that suppose to 'wheel' the card in was broken or something. So i called up national bank (coz it was a national bank atm) and they said i have to contact my own bank, which means they weren't gonna send someone down there to cough up my card... oh well... so i called ANZ, they cancelled my card, and i had to get a new one from one of the branches for $15. DAd was soooo right about how the bank is the easiest way to make money, they charge you for doing the littlest things. Anyway, i went to the bank, and mike actually came along, really nice of him.. i asked the teller, and she told me i had to wait etc to get a new card, i decided i'll just do that on monday, prob a good time to set up internet banking too.

Random note... 2 fone calls... and no gettgin nervous before fone call, i must be gettign better... prob coz the desperation of the situation.

But anyway, i had no money... for the rest of the day.... i have to say... the thought of having no money left me feelign quite 'bare' and 'insecure', it wasn't that bad coz i had my friends with me... lol.. it's funny, i am one of thoes ppl that likes to pay cash, and like to always have cash on me, just to feel secure... lol..... weird i know

Anyway, spent most of the days at arcades... which was expected... but i had lots of fun... hehehe besides... i love watchign ppl play video games... hehehe

random note.. my mum is getting meaner :P i told her that i have no money, i want to borrow some for monday... and her reaction was... "ok.. how much interest r u gonna pay me" -____- then i told her how mike shouted us for lunch... and she just went on and on about how i should've been more organised and get a cake etc etc ... for freaking 5mins @____@ it's not even her birthday~ ok.. i'll just blame it on menopause. but yea.. she was right.. we should've... sry mike~

btw... is it just me or is my week been really eventful, the car accident, which took 3 days to resolution, plannning for the present, and then eftpos gettign eat up.... hm......

Like promised, i am updating.. hehehe have so much to say... but forgot most of it already... oh well

Right.. wed.... i'll update that later... at night i went to that lady's house, and before we said anythign, she took out her cheque book and gave me the $300 that we asked.. so it's all good. Hehehe so we actually chatted for like 20mins before i left while dad's waiting outside in the dark. =P And then on thur dad took the car to the garage, and the person said it mite cost more than $300 -___________- think dad was really pissed off... i woudl be too. But it's non of the problem anymore =D

Random Fact: Pissing is actually a person's last name, who did lots of reserach on water, and drainage and stuff. Feel sorry for him that for all he has done... he name is 'deglorified' majorlly.

Yesterday... wagged the 1st 2 classes coz i slept so late that morning.. =S all my pimples is coming out again... *frustrated* anyway.. had bio lab yesterday, once i got there, handed in my prelab and everything, i realized i stuffed up the entire calculation section, coz i read the wrong values or whatever =S silly me.... otherwise lab was ok.... stayed for extra 10mins after i finished to help my lab partner coz i felt so bad always leaving him behind... =P

Had to do phy lab report last night... i absolutely hate it!! they dotn' tell us what they expect from a good lab report, and when they mark it, they dont' tell us why we loose the marks... so it's.. irritating!!! slept so late last night again, in fact, mum went downstairs to check her bread machine, passing our floor twice, and told me to go to sleep twice. And i think she got annoyed that i was still using the computer, she told dad to come down to tell me to go to bed. Good thing no one yelled at me this morning =D so they must've thought i was doing work =D

Oooo yesterday i had a relaly nice chat with Anne, hehehe it's so nice to catch up with old friends, it's amazing we haven't talked for ages, but we can just go blah for ages and ages. I really miss hanging out with her.

Over slept this morning, so didn't go to the morning class. I like going to the 8am stream on friday coz tina is always goes to that stream. But not today, but prob a good thing coz i saw anne on the bus ^__^ had another good talk with her... not as good as yesterday's coz i was half asleep =D

Oooo I've been telling you ppl how paranoid i am.. here's another good example. Today i have to go to the bank and get the $300 cheque deposited. So i went there at 11 after physic, and immediately afterwards i went to atm to check if the money has been transfered.. and it hasn't. So as i was walkign towards food court, i called emily to ask if i should be able to see the transaction immediately, and she said yes. So after lunch, i went to ATM again, and found that tis' still not on my account. So i called mum, and mum told me to go back to ask. AFter 20mins of waiting, the teller told me that cheque takes 5 working days to transfer -_____- mum lied!!! and i am paranoid =D

TOday is a weird day, i went to chem earlier than usual, saw peter sitting outside, so i sat with him for like... 10mins... Saw kathy and Louis, and saw Bruce and his gf, AND EVERYONE WAS GIVING ME THE WEIRD LOOK. even when i saw sherry after chem, SHE WAS GIVING ME THE WEIRD LOOK. is it that weird to walk around with a guy? not to mention i was following the '1 meter rule' *weird* anyway, to ppl who mite be a tiny little bit suspicious YOU GUYS THINK TOO MUCH!!!!! come on~~ if i have a bf.. woudl i be eating lunch ALONE when i went down to city today? see!!! i have a point..

tomorrow is going to be an interesting day....