ok... feel stupid now~~ talked to mum last night about work and she said the decent thign to do is to call up my boss and ask if they needed help. Ok the fact that there's a sheet with my name on it that says i have to go to work is annoying me.. i mean. i hate to be irresponsible towards my job, even tho i supposely have quit and all (but then i was on a yearly contract anyway). Anyway so i call my boss up today, and she said oh`~ "yes they are still sorting music out and IF u have time tomorrow u can drop by" -_________- i don't know... of course by then i coudlnt' get out of it.. i dotn' know.. doesnt' sound like she was expecting me to go.. but then it was her husband who supposely hangs out the sheets... argh`~ who cares 3 hours of work can't be that bad rite... Too bad alex won't be there tomorrow, she's leaving for HK :S lucky`~ guess i can't complain =P

Went to uni today.. or more specifically sjs office, oh`~ and to all those ppl who uses sjs, if there's a 'FG" on the job description, that means u can only apply if u r 2nd year or above... i dont' get it tho.. u can say i am 2nd year now.. oh well~~ that means all the science related jobs are out of question, that leave me with.. well.. food related jobs... on the way home parents were shouting 'macdonalds' everywhere -___- yea ok they had a point, i'll learn more if i was go work in a big company because they woudl have an established system an everythign.. but i am kind of... can't be bothered? besides, 98% of them have already got all their xmas crew, kind of late for me to start looking now =S i don't know.. if i am not feelign lazy, i mite go out and have a shot.

Speaking of which i am still writing my CV -___- ok.. i finish all the easy ones, it's one of those 'personal attribute' stuff i am stuck on... i don't know what i am good at. Ok ok, on the cv i wrote as part of 6th form course, these are the words i used, responsible, practical, honest, attentive to details. Ok.. responsible i guess i agree, practical..er.. not to sure... honest?? well i guess so, what is there to lie about workign anyway, but attnetive to details is coming off the lists... but hm... that's not a good cv, never gotten any job offer with that.. so i have to come up with a new list... *sigh* i dont' know what kind of person i am... ok.. if i was an employer at mac, i woudl look for a person with good communication skills (not me) good ppl skills (again not me), efficient(er... i can be, but i dont' work well with stress), and fast learner (which i can't say i am) SEE, NO ONE IS GOING TO HIRE ME!!! sigh... ok.. i am jobless... i can't even complete my own cv :S that's y i look at like.. scientific jobs first.. i mean if they concentrate more on academic records, i mite actually have a better shot at it... oh well~~ hope this is just my pessimism tlkaing. Time is running out.. 1 more week or else... summerschool -________- i just realized mum's big plan... it's brilliant.. really.. i mean... 1) this means i can't spend all summer playing and 2)if i get a job, it's obviously good for my future, and if i do summerschool, it's good for emily (or at least that's what she thinks) yup.. brilliant plan.. too bad i am part of it.

*lucy throws tentrum and demands her 3 months holiday to be left ffffffree"