Ok.. ever heard of a person who gets sad when they heard they've gotten a job?? well there's one.. ME!!!! y?? MY HOLIDAY IS RUINED!!! :'( i need 3 weeks of training... 3 weeks.. ok... i am going insane here.... Summerschool is stressful.. not i HAVE to wag classes (funny` mum actually asked me if i coudl wag.. lol) on top of 1 assignement each week... on top of tests and exams... i come to the conclusion that by the end of feb. I'LL BE DEAD! u know.. what really pisses me off is that i won't have much time to spend with my friends anymore :S most of them comes back next week.. and i'll be too busy... :'( holiday to me means spending heaps of time with friends wether it's staying at someone's house, goign to movies/ shopping.. i dotn' mind~~ and ok.. how many times have i done that this holiday??? 3.... ONLY 3!!!! :'( i don't know... i am annoyed!! very annoyed!! I WANT A DECENT HOLIDAY!!!! and don't tell me that i alreayd had 2 months of holiday.. those are not holidays!! IT'S NOT HOLIDAY UNTIL SOMEONE IS HERE TO SPEND IT WITH ME....

ok..
*breath in*
*breath out*

Tell u the truth.. i dotn' actually like that job.. i know it's food science related.. but i am just not interested in.. 'growing' stuff... especially little ugly blobs of stuff. But i know I need the job.. well not need, but it'll be a huge advantage for me doing that job... even tho it's far.. and even tho i dont' think that lady likes me very much... It'll be good.. long term wise. Personally i don't think i deserve this job... but what the heck... hm... forgot to ask how much i am being paid -___-

You know.. this woudl all be better if i wasn't doing this freaking stupid stats paper!!! wish i coudl withdraw, but of course it's way passed the withdrawl date .... y is this happening??? i am supposely doing a good 'deed' by doing this paper.. y is this becoming such a huge disadvantage.. such big strain on me..... i am not benefiting anythign from it... except heaps and heaps of pressure.. pressure to do well.. pressure from parents... pressure to make emily do well... and with the training thign.. it's few days a week.. so let's just say 3... wagging 3 classes a week = 6 normal lectures worth!!! it's A LOT ok~~ i know i have wagged like 2 classes so far.. but never 2 days in a row BECAUSE THAT'S MY LIMIT!! anymore i'll fall behind.... Y DOES NO ONE ELSE UNDERSTANDS HOW STRESSFUL THIS IS... mum and dad thinks i shodultn' be whinging and concentrate on the fact that i got great job ... but... but... i stresses.. that's who i am... DON'T tell me i am going to be ok.. i can only comprehend that WHEN i see that i am going to be alrite....

I am sorry ppl.. who is still reading... i kwno most of u prob think i am making a huge deal out of nothing... but u know~~ for months now.. i've been waiting for the moment where i coudl go out and hang out with friends... and now all that looks so bleak... so bleak.... but i guess that's all short term... i have to go through with this to get the long term benefits.... and who knows i mite end up enjoyin th job afterall.

ppl who are reading this... PLZ tell me when u ppl are free to hang out.. so next thursday when i go for my training.. i can organise my training days around that... or else... i'll just have an -antisocial holiday....

Almost went deaf today coz i was driving.. emily was yelling.. and i coudlnt' change lanes.... i suck at it i know!! i am a shocking driver i know!!! thank goodness changing lanes is not in the full licence test.......

Goign to do somethign to cheer myself up now! wish i have someone to complain to tho...