Long time no see
I met up with someone I have not seen for 9 years last weekend. She used to be a really close friend of mine during intermediate, we had similar backgrounds and she was an active supporter of my 'speak english only in school' campaign. We were really close back then, but since she had a really strict mum, we only hang together during school time, and we virtually never seen each other outside of school grounds.
Then she started changing, towards the 2nd half of form 2, she became really absorbed into homework. Back then, getting good grades meant very little to me, I neither thought I had the ability to achieve well, nor really cared since the grades doesnt' matter anyway. But it was different to her, she works really hard, during the breaks, and we started drifting apart. Back then, I took it as a sign that she no longer thinks our friendship was important, so I too, started keeping my distance, but deep inside I was afraid of loosing her.
And I did, she didn't attend the same college as the rest of us, and soon we heard news that she went overseas.... over these 9 years, although I have never met her, nor spoke to her until recently. For a long while, i thought that was the end of my friendship with her.
And there we were, seeing each other for a long time, I came to the full appreciation of how time does to us all, we no longer know anything about each other except the 2 years that we were in intermediate, I didn't know what she likes, what her style of clothing was... it was weird, awkward almost, but most importantly it was filled with the possiblities of the beginning of something new. I guess just have to wait to see how everything turns out.
Anyway, I doubt she'll never see this entry, but if she did, I just wanted to tell her I am sorry about trying to keep my distance back in the days, and I may have said things I didn't mean. I regretted what I did, and as a good friend, I really should've been more supportive of you striving for better grades. For the past 9 years, I have missed you, and had always wondered if I had tried harder, we wouldnt' be completely out of touch for so long.... and lastly I just want to say thank you, for meeting up with me, thank you for giving our friendship a 2nd chance.
Then she started changing, towards the 2nd half of form 2, she became really absorbed into homework. Back then, getting good grades meant very little to me, I neither thought I had the ability to achieve well, nor really cared since the grades doesnt' matter anyway. But it was different to her, she works really hard, during the breaks, and we started drifting apart. Back then, I took it as a sign that she no longer thinks our friendship was important, so I too, started keeping my distance, but deep inside I was afraid of loosing her.
And I did, she didn't attend the same college as the rest of us, and soon we heard news that she went overseas.... over these 9 years, although I have never met her, nor spoke to her until recently. For a long while, i thought that was the end of my friendship with her.
And there we were, seeing each other for a long time, I came to the full appreciation of how time does to us all, we no longer know anything about each other except the 2 years that we were in intermediate, I didn't know what she likes, what her style of clothing was... it was weird, awkward almost, but most importantly it was filled with the possiblities of the beginning of something new. I guess just have to wait to see how everything turns out.
Anyway, I doubt she'll never see this entry, but if she did, I just wanted to tell her I am sorry about trying to keep my distance back in the days, and I may have said things I didn't mean. I regretted what I did, and as a good friend, I really should've been more supportive of you striving for better grades. For the past 9 years, I have missed you, and had always wondered if I had tried harder, we wouldnt' be completely out of touch for so long.... and lastly I just want to say thank you, for meeting up with me, thank you for giving our friendship a 2nd chance.
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