Finished my assingment last night, quite suprising i mean.. it's due tomorrow.. lol well ok, i knew i was goign to be busy today so i didn't it last night. Also coz Shawn (one of my assingment buddies) said that he was going to be busy today as well, so we all agreed that we were going to do it last night.. So 8:00 last night, i went online and started doing assingment... danny was alreayd online and practically finished his assingment (expect for like.. 2 little questions) and shawn wasn't there... Hm... in fact by the time he got online was like 11:00, danny has finished and was helping me to do last question (coz i was so lost.. wagged too much) and we agreed to give him a little 'punishment' for telling us to do assingment early and came online so late.. well.. wasn't much of a punishment, we were trying to make him feel guilty by saying how we waited all this time for him to get online so we coudl start on the assingment together.. and well.. i doubt he was affected by it at all. In fact he said he was too tired and was goign to do the assignemtn today... LOL well~~

Mum got angry at me this morning.. Ok.. she came into my room while i was sleeping and said.. 'dad is downstairs and ask for u' or something.. well.. she said it in chiense, and i thought she meant 'dad has got guests downstairs' and i was like.. ok... i guess it doesn't matter so i went back to sleep... next thign i know emily told me 'mum is really mad at you now~ what r u doign in bed, go downstairs'.... yea... well.. she got over is pretty quickly.. i mean it was just a misunderstanding.. Well dad gave me like a 10mins lecture about how i have think before i make decisions (referring to me goign to airport today), i see his point.. i mean i just got my full, i am driving to a place i've never driven before, no one in the car is 100% which way to go, and if anything happens, i'll be the one responsible... but u know.. i really didn't think it was that big a deal... maybe i am just not mature enough to make the right decisions??? *shrug* either way~ er.. i doubt i'll be able to provide the transport if we are going on a road trip anymore. Dad will slaughter me.. lol

Got this mail from mum today

Dear Daughters,
I love you! In this cool summer, I feel very happiness because I have you. Sweet girls!
I love you!
mum

Awwwwwww mum is Sooooooooo sweet, wish she is home rite now so i could give her a hug... any how, MUST do assingment now -___- bye~

9 hours of work today exclude lunch and driving time. Had a family dinner at this new restaurant called "taxis" at pak plaza. hm.. very american i guess, so full tho. the portions are WAY~~ to big.. we had like.. 3 mains and 1 entree sharing between 4 ppl, and we still had a lot of left-overs... the food was ok i guess, i dotn' know.. i think the job is having a bad effect on me... i mean.. like after you see pieces of macoroni cheese and peas floating on this yucky brown soup, it kind of ruins ur appetite for that particular food.. hehehe but it's cool, i am getting better at it, i can set up the streaking controls all by myself now ^^

Today before i left the house, mum was telling me to give her a call when i get to work, and when i finish work, so that they wont' be worried about me driving all the distance all the time... you know.. i felt really bad, i mean of course they woudl be worried, i just got my full like last week, i can't verge lanes, i can't change lanes, i get lost easily and i am driving a very long distance. Feel like a bad daughter, so inconsiderate.... but in a way, i am kinda glad that my job is far away, i mean it made me step out of our little area you know~or else i wont' be ok with driving on motorways for a looooooong time... I mean i am actually better at changing lanes now~ (coz i keep forgetting which lanes to keep to) speaking of that.. went on the wrong lane and end up going on the motorway in the opposite direction AGAIN!!! -___- good thign this time i actually saw the big roundabout at ellerslie and just turned back.

btw~~ for all those nice ppl who calls me, this is another friendly reminder that plz dont' call after 10 ^^; i dotn' think anyone has called me after 10, but got 2 complaints from parents today so... lol... and i been gettign so many fone calls lately, dad got so annoyed that he found an old fone and plugged it in my room. YAY~~ now i have a FONE~ in my room ^^lol

Anyway.. talked to someone on thur about something... i don't want to talk too much about it, but let's just say i found out what really happened 3 years ago.. was kinda upset, note.. only kinda.. i mean.. guessing what mite've happened is different to knowing what actually happened rite? btw, er.. i woudl prefer if ppl didn't leave a msg on my tagboard about this, i just want to blog about thsi so that when i read about this later on, i'll remind myself that there is a difference between trust and just being plain naive, and i want to remind myself of how many great friends i have.... friends that i know will be on my side when things turn bad, friends that are willing to be there for me. ^^ love you ppl ^^

guess it's time that i update eh~~lol
was goign to blog about somethign personal... but too tired to.. so yea.. too bad :P

er... today we eventful, Len, Tina and Hsuan came in the morning, too bad they coudlnt' stay for long coz ihave to leave at 1... =( we made crepes hehehe, and honestly... i have to say tina and len's appetite is so small -____- no wonder they are so skinny.. oh well~~ well... hsuan really want to knwo what he would look like if he was a girl.. so i lend him a skirt thing (like one of those beach ones that's like a huge piece of fabric, and u can just tie it up where ever according to ur waist etc) and he got excited.. omg~~ he keep stuffing like cushions underneath trying to be a pregnant woman -____- anyway.. after they left, i think they went to len's house to put makeup on him.. lol.. i am really curious what he looks like.. LOL if i get hold of a foto i think i'll post it up.

Hm... ok.. remember i have 2 assignemtn buddies?? one's Shawn and one's Danny, anyway.. for some reason, Shawn really want to find out what we look like and stuff, so last night he said he'll wear a white wrist band on his hand, so we can go and say hi if we want to... LOL and u know what.. he was wearing a HUGE white wrist band... LOL anyway.. he was sitting on the other side of the room so i really coudlnt' see him.. he looks tall-ish tho... well.. didn't have coins for parkign today, so we only stayed for 1 hr.. so didn't say hi... lol

Afterwards met up with jeff, was his b/d yesterday but he was too busy to spend it with us... *sniff* lol.. he's so lucky.. got a ps2 for his present.... so lucky... but then i guess len is lucky too.. if i remember correctly she won her ps2.... lucky ppl.

Ok i am sorry for saying everything so briefly, i have a lot more to say, but i am tired -_____- so yea.. mite add more later tomorrow if i feel like it... Work tomorrow. have to wake up early too =S nite nite.

ARGH~~~~ stats test was a lot harder than expected =S ok.. i know i passed and everything, but... didn't expect to have to actually 'multi-guess' few of the questions.. oh well~~

Last night i was stressing about assingemnt... there's only 4 questions... and i coudlnt' do one of the questions coz stupid R keep stuffing up, i input exactly the same code as textbooks and it keep telling me i can't do taht etc etc... argh~~ luckily i have my assignemnt buddies :P one of them figured out the problem within 5 minutes.. and i was good to go ^^ such a small world it is.. as it turned out, one of them was an ex-macleans, and he was like in the same house as me as well (rutherfordians rulz~~ ) but then he's like 3 years ahead of me.. i can't remember him at all *shrug* but then i dont' really know what he looks like anyway.

Hm... both of them had fun laughing at me coz i spend more on video games than clothes -_____- i really can't help it if each game average at like $80 each you know~ but it is true tho.. i mean i have like no female friend to talk to games to.. the closest i get is tina and len. Tina dont' even own a console, she just likes playing on my ps2 when she comes or when i bring my ps2 to her house. Len has a ps2 (more like her bro's) and the most she's gottne was like... a bit of ffx-2 before she got bored and decided to dish out the storyline from ron and i instead... lol ANd honestly speaking, i don't know as much about video games as any guy who is into it.. i mean.. i have very little way of exchanging info with other ppl... oh well~~

I miss girls night out.... must plan one soon ^^
Work tomorrow.. hope they are not gonna yell at me for taking monday off.... =P

Spekaing of work.. forgot to mention about Yeau.. it was so random, last wednesday she set next to me in stats.. at that time obviously we still didn' tknwo each other. On thursday when i went to work.. i was like.. i am pretty sure i've seen that girl before.. and IT IS HER.. LOL and she's the nicest person~~~ honeslty... she worked again on saturday, and she handed me a pile of nicely written notes on... I was so touched... i mean.. it was ralely hard in the begiining... all these different methods.. and have to know so much about each.. and she just... organised it all for me... i am really lucky to know many nice ppl.`

Tina is back too ^______^ *happy* party~party~ just hope i'll have time to do that... hehehe

Ok.. i guess i better update this now.. even tho i really shoudl be assignmenting/studying.. lol, i know someone's been waiting for me to update about sat night... :P

BUt before that... working 3 days in a row... is tiring... i mean the hours are unbelievable long, and having to stand up all the time is a killer.. now i finally understand y emily complained about that when she just started working... on a good note.. since i worked like for 24 hours in total for these 3 days, i earned like $200. ^^ yay~~

Getting a glimpse of the whole process now... kinda... I think the guy who i was replacing used to do lots of streaking as his job.. so Malini (my supervisor) just want me to concentrate on streaking atm... which is fine~ coz it's a lot simplier than what goes on in the filling room(where samples go and get put into little bags/containers and put in to enrichment etc... i mean yesterday this girl was trying to do that to those healthy choice microwave dinner thing...looks difficult) The bad thing about doing streaking all day is that, by afternoon, i am like the only person in the room, and the room is SOOOO warm ><>

Anyway i was suppose to go to work today, but i cancelled it coz.. there was just no way i coudl finish my assignemnt + studyign if i did... was supose to do assignemtn on friday, but then they had guest over, and as a 'daughter' i am obligated to 'help' until the guest leaves.. which just killed the whole night of work *sign* i doubt they'll be very happy about it... yea.. it' my fault, i shodul've planned my working schedule a bit better, but then given the circumstances.. i had to ask for leave today.. so yea.... *shrug*

But hey~~ i had fun this weekend.. the sleepover i've been blahing about for the past month finally occured :P it seems like we've been planning it for ages and ages.. but come to think about it.. our 'plan' was simply to go there at like 5 or somethign, mindy will bring ps2 console and i'll bring the games, and that mindy's gonna cook dinner and we are goign to supermarket to shop for food.... i mean.. that's not a lot of actual planning, but took us ages to.. i guess a lot of the planning goes to convincing mike to come :P still dont' know how jeff did it... when i was doing the convincing mike was "oh~~ i don't know... no promises etc" and as soon as jeff step in he was "i woudl like to go, but i am not sure etc" i guess the guys have their way huh~ =P

Anyway so after work on Sat, i drove straight to jeff's... his house is Sooooooooo close to work it's no fair :'( took me like.. 15 mins to get there... not fair.... Anyway, got there about 6:30, Mike was already there watching naruto 119 with jeff on his laptop (which by that time he has already watch like 5 times.. lol and keep telling us to sit down and watch it =P) Mindy came at about 7:00, and off we go to the supermarket, Mike got excited over the fact that i 'drove' to Jeff's house, and wanted me to do the driving -____- good thing Jeff's house was like... 5 min from the supermarket, and i think most of the time i was driving within a mall type thing.. hahaha great way to show of my driving skills eh ;) Bought like a whole trolley of groceries.. and by the time we got back it was 7:30, so Mindy started doing the chicken and roast veges, but that woudl take like 2 hours, so Mike was goign to do his pasta later on, mean while Jeff made this egg + leek+ mushroom stir-fry... it's actually really nice~ i never knew you could cook leek that way... It's very interesting to see someone coudl just plan up a dish just like that....

Anwyay.. meanwhile we wait.. i think we did some ps2-ing, ddr-ing. and then it's dinner time. ^^ which by then it was close to 10pm.. lol and we had WAY~~ more than enough -___- i was sooooo full by the end of it i coudl hardly move =P but the pasta was really nice~~ and the roast chicken and roast veges were just amazing.. i mean it was perfectly cooked, but at the same time maintained it's moisture, yum yum ^^ mindy sure knows her craft ^^ After dinner.. Mike started playing Soul Calibur.. hehehe it's so cool, he unlocked heaps of stuff for me ;) meanwhile i was doing the dishes (note i made no contribution to cooking. lol) Mindy was playing with her new fone.. hahaha she's so addicted to those games, Mike was showing Jeff all these moves with female characters, like when they cross their legs at certain angle and stuff... -___- you shoudl've seen their faces.. they were.... dazzled, stunned, LOL~~ guys -__-

Think we did more ps2-ing, and thne Mike said he has to leave... and somewhere between he said he was gonna leave (at around midnight) to the time he actually left (3am) he had this long long discussion with Jeff on Naruto in the kitchen, while me and Mindy chat about.. random stuff, u know.. girl talk hehehe

At around 2 something, still unbelievably full from our huge dinner, we started attacking those snacks :P Mike eventaully left at about 3, even tho we were convinced that leaving at 5 and 3 wouldn't have made a difference. AFter that i think I was playing mystic heros with jeff while mindy plays her fone and drift to sleep :P at about 5:30 we all went to sleep...

woke up at 10am coz... Jeff's radio thing just went off.. it was funny, coz it started singing cantonese... hahah took me a while to find the radio and turned it off... and went back to sleep.. very soon mum called (and 'someone' had change my ringtone to the wedding march... arrrr) i told her i'll try to make it home for lunch, and then at 10:30 my alarm went off.. and start folding my sleeping bag... Jeff came downstairs soon after, and mindy got woken up while i was pakcing my sleeping bag.. and then we just lie in the living room.. talking for like what seem to be a very long time~ which was great.. coz it actually woke me up... and then Jeff showed us the pictures he took when he went to Japan and China... he's so lucky... went to so many places in 1 holiday... After that i think i came to the realization that there was no way i coudl go back for lunch, so called mum that i'll be home before 3, We had leftovers for brunch, then Jeff and Mindy played time crisis,, then jeff was showing mindy the nokia downloading site or something, then we came back down and i showed jeff Kingdom heart.. hehe, i miss that game... the best rpg i have on my ps2 :P and at around 2:50 we left the house, lol, driving on a sunday is so cool, no cars.. i told mindy i was shocking at verging lanes on the motorway, and so she helped me look, and both times, there was like no cars :P

Anyway, dropped mindy off and then got home, and as expected, mum started this questioning thing.. 'what time did you say u were going to be home?, and what time is now??? " etc hhehehe and then i distracted her by telling how good i drove ( i have a slight fear of motorway) coz there was no car.. lol.. then i think... i was lying on my bed with mum, telling her about the sleepover. hehehe i guess it was mum's way of 'inspecting', i mean, even tho it's not the first time i had a sleepover at a guys' house, she probabily still not 100% ok with it. *shrug*, got a call from Len after that.. she asked me if i had a test coming up and i said yes, and then she was like.. "ok.. nvm" I felt a bit guilty that i coudlnt' go out with her, i know she was bored and wanted to hang out with someone, but a sleepover was all i coudl afford to do this weekend.. and the next time i'll be free is tuesday after my test.. and then after that?? who knows -____- y am i so busy... *sign* But i guess i really can't complain.. i had a great weekend. ^^

hehehe thank you to Jeff, nice enough to let us carry out our sleepover plan, heaps of organisation on his part even tho we kinda 'invited' ourself to the party at his place... lol, thanks to mike for finally agreeing to come ^^ we all know u r really busy, and it meant a lot to us that u came, oh~ and nice enough to watch 119 with us like 5 times... lol and the pasta was really nice~ hehehe the side-dish was as glamourous as the main (even tho the pot was very lumpy and black to wash.. lol) and to Mindy of course, our chef of the night... i mean.. she roasted the whole chicken... WOW~~ and it taste relaly really nice... without her there woudln't be a sleepover, but just a party? Anyway.. i had heaps and heaps of fun this weekend, and yes jeff i woudlnt' mind doign it again ^^ and i just spent the last 45 mins updating this blog it's not even funny. going to assignmenting now~ bye~

LEN IS BACK~ LEN IS BACK~~ YAY~~ ^^ lol she came over to give me stuff at night, i was so surprised.. hm.. think she lost more weight coz she was sick in phillipines... make me want to loose weight too.... eek anyway... happy

first day at work.. SOOOO tiring.. coz i've never worked such long hours.. think it's 6 and half hours + 30mins break... and plus during work there's like no place to sit... so it's like standing for.. very long hours.. oh well... but hey~~ i got one of those cool security card thign ^^ hehehe

The job involves a lot of weighting and stuff. oh~~ and pipettie.. which is fine.. but... tthere's so much to remember >< memery ="S">

Oh yea.. i get paid $11 per hour.. which is not bad.. a bit less than i was expecting.. but u know what~~ it's perfect.. that means i won't get over $100 per week, which means i am still elegible for student allowance.. YAY~~ ^^
Anyway.. have work at 8:30 -___- too early if u ask me.. and since it takes 40mins to get there, WITHOUT traffic.. i think i'll be... waking up early tomorrow. nite nite ppl ^^

ok~~ i've never failed an important exam/test in my life.. and i almost failed one today... phew~~ it was so close it's not funny... sat my full today... ok.. before the test i went to both routes and well ppl always say Dannemora is the easier route EXCEPT that there's construction sign on chapel road.. which means I have to drive at 30 when everyone else is driving at 80... hm... i think all drivers know the pressure of a huge line of cars behind you... ANYWAY.. just my luck i got the Dannemora route.. OMG~~ the examiner is so MEAN!! part 2 of the test is the bit where i'll make a turn and i have to remember all the moving hazards.... and i think we did that like 4 times, and the first 2 times there was like NOTHING!!! NOTHIGN ON THE ROAD!!! and the examiner was like..
"was there ANYTHING behind you??"
"no... i didn't see anything"
"are you sure?? did you check ur back mirrors"
"er.. i am pretty sure i did"
"ok~ if u say u didn't see anythign then u didn't" and he started writing -___-

and the 2nd time he DID IT AGAIN!!! argh~~ by the 4th time i was so convinced that he was just playing with me i just went.. yea.. there was no car! arr...

Anyway.. that's not the reason y i almost failed... hm... as i said.. the 30 thing... did you know that.. apparently just coz there's a 'work ends here' sign doesn't mean the speed limit goes back to 80?? well.. if u did.. i didn't -___- i mean.. after i drove to the end at the roundabout and U turned back he was like.. ok.. stop by the side.. and he 'explained' how much i speed... ok.. i honeslty didn't know.. and this morning when i practiced it with my driving instructor.. he told me i coudl speed after the work end sign....aargh~~ ok.. from the work ends sign to the next speed limit sign was a few good hundreds meters... with lots of narrow lanes (i.e. ppl can't pass me) etc.. surely.. he can't.. expect us to... drive at 30?!?!?! well i guess it's the part of the road code and i can't do anythign about it.. on the way back it was.. a grim drive.. coz i thought i failed. but then he still let me passed ^^ he said my first 2 parts were good so he'll let me pass given that i'll never forget about the speed thing.. (really~~ as if i woudl really drive at 30 not in test condition, i'll be slaughtered by the cars behind -___-)

Interesting note.. hehehe ok on the way back.. there was a... peacock crossing the road *focl* omg~~ what are the chances of seeing a peacock in the middle of the road... DURING a driving test.. lol... and then we started talking about peacocks... hahaha did you know that peacocks fly?? and they nest in trees at night??? :O didn't know that~~ so yea~~ maybe the peacocks put him in a better mood or whatever, i am just thankful that i passed ^_____^ no more driving tests EVER... YAY~~~~ no more worrying about gettign caught by carryign passengers.. YAY~~~

Now that i got that out of the way~ i can tell you about yesterday.. i had to pretend to be Kathy and cancel her electricity bill thing.. hahahah i had her details and stuff with me, but when the lady as me when my birthday was i was like..... er.....er.... i.. dont' know... LOL yea.. blown my cover off right there. so yea.. i had to explain to there that was doign it on behalf of Kathy. Turn out that she can just email them.. thank goodness. hahah i would suck as a spy. :P

ANyway.. first day at work tomorrow.. wish me luck.. kinda worried that i'll be all alone and stuff.. coz casuals only works on weekdays.. so tomorrow there shoudl be all those full time staff which means they'll be a lot older than me??? argh~ worry about that tomorrow..

In the mean time.. If you are a strong man, or you konw any strong man who is interested in earning quick bucks and free this friday, let me know!! We are moving our garden shed from one side to another... like only 8 meters tops.. and we need 8 ppl to carry it (ok.. the guy actually said 4~6, but dad is hiring 8 just in case) so yea~~ i think atm we still need... 6 ppl.. heheh and my dad is paying $25 each!! and the job won't last longer than 30mins... really fast job.. good money ^^ let me know if anyone is interested ^^

Went and saw Finding Neverland today. hehehe quite a nice movie actually~ it's based on true events that inspired the author of peter pan to write that play/story... aww~ the ending was bittersweet, ok i wont' spoil the movie for you ppl in case if any of you are going to watch it. I want to find my neverland too~~

random fact: johnny depp has ridiculously long eye lashes -__- during some parts of the movie, due to lighting, the shadow of his eye lashes extended to below his eye.. er.. nice~

OMG~~ i am having such a bad bus day.. first in the morning.. the oven bus thign.. and then when we went home today.. our bus break down on bucklands beach road @___@ so we waited there for like 20 mins for the next 52 bus to get there.. and u know.. that bus driver missed our stop TWICE!!! and she was gonna miss the 3rd, i had to run up to front to tell her to stop -_- oh well~~ bad bus day~~ weather too warm, that bus was overheating.. oh well~~

heheh i have nice assignment buddies.. tho one of them said all girls are mean, and the other agreed. WHILE i was on the fone.. tsk tsk tsk.. talking behind my back.. hahah well this time next week i'll show them how 'mean' girls can be :D

OMG~~ just came out of the bus.. the bus was like an OVEN!!! OMG!!!! everyone on that bus was sweating hardout.. it was one of those new buses as well.. but fact has proven the new bus without windows will be shockingly warm when the air conditioner isn't working -____- when i got to au it was like YAY~~ AIR-CON ^^ so nice... heheheh ok.. goign to lunch now~~ ^^

Hahahah this quiz is cool ^^


Which Naruto Character are You?
quiz by

Er.... wish i could be someone cool like Kakashi.. oh well~~ shy.. alrite aroudns strangers i am... sweet...as if!!! too bad Shikamaru isn't in the last.. lol.. i think i totally qualifies.. except for the IQ200 thing of course :P but i mean... i am lazy, i complains a lot, and i am not ambitious... LOL SHIKAMARU IS COOL ^^ goign to watch his battle again ^^

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Just had dinner with xtine.. *sniff* she is leaving tomorrow.. that's one less friend here... oh well`~ it's so cool tho.. i like hyperactive ppl, coz their hyperactiveness are so infectious.. lol...

Anyway... feeling much better now, in fact after i posted my blog i was pretty much over it.. think i over reacted a bit.. hm... *shrug* i think i just repel changes.. like anything happens i'll be in denial and want to reject it.. guess i am not adaptable. *shrug* anyway.. mite start assignemtn tonite... hm... i'll 'think' about it ^^

Ok.. ever heard of a person who gets sad when they heard they've gotten a job?? well there's one.. ME!!!! y?? MY HOLIDAY IS RUINED!!! :'( i need 3 weeks of training... 3 weeks.. ok... i am going insane here.... Summerschool is stressful.. not i HAVE to wag classes (funny` mum actually asked me if i coudl wag.. lol) on top of 1 assignement each week... on top of tests and exams... i come to the conclusion that by the end of feb. I'LL BE DEAD! u know.. what really pisses me off is that i won't have much time to spend with my friends anymore :S most of them comes back next week.. and i'll be too busy... :'( holiday to me means spending heaps of time with friends wether it's staying at someone's house, goign to movies/ shopping.. i dotn' mind~~ and ok.. how many times have i done that this holiday??? 3.... ONLY 3!!!! :'( i don't know... i am annoyed!! very annoyed!! I WANT A DECENT HOLIDAY!!!! and don't tell me that i alreayd had 2 months of holiday.. those are not holidays!! IT'S NOT HOLIDAY UNTIL SOMEONE IS HERE TO SPEND IT WITH ME....

ok..
*breath in*
*breath out*

Tell u the truth.. i dotn' actually like that job.. i know it's food science related.. but i am just not interested in.. 'growing' stuff... especially little ugly blobs of stuff. But i know I need the job.. well not need, but it'll be a huge advantage for me doing that job... even tho it's far.. and even tho i dont' think that lady likes me very much... It'll be good.. long term wise. Personally i don't think i deserve this job... but what the heck... hm... forgot to ask how much i am being paid -___-

You know.. this woudl all be better if i wasn't doing this freaking stupid stats paper!!! wish i coudl withdraw, but of course it's way passed the withdrawl date .... y is this happening??? i am supposely doing a good 'deed' by doing this paper.. y is this becoming such a huge disadvantage.. such big strain on me..... i am not benefiting anythign from it... except heaps and heaps of pressure.. pressure to do well.. pressure from parents... pressure to make emily do well... and with the training thign.. it's few days a week.. so let's just say 3... wagging 3 classes a week = 6 normal lectures worth!!! it's A LOT ok~~ i know i have wagged like 2 classes so far.. but never 2 days in a row BECAUSE THAT'S MY LIMIT!! anymore i'll fall behind.... Y DOES NO ONE ELSE UNDERSTANDS HOW STRESSFUL THIS IS... mum and dad thinks i shodultn' be whinging and concentrate on the fact that i got great job ... but... but... i stresses.. that's who i am... DON'T tell me i am going to be ok.. i can only comprehend that WHEN i see that i am going to be alrite....

I am sorry ppl.. who is still reading... i kwno most of u prob think i am making a huge deal out of nothing... but u know~~ for months now.. i've been waiting for the moment where i coudl go out and hang out with friends... and now all that looks so bleak... so bleak.... but i guess that's all short term... i have to go through with this to get the long term benefits.... and who knows i mite end up enjoyin th job afterall.

ppl who are reading this... PLZ tell me when u ppl are free to hang out.. so next thursday when i go for my training.. i can organise my training days around that... or else... i'll just have an -antisocial holiday....

Almost went deaf today coz i was driving.. emily was yelling.. and i coudlnt' change lanes.... i suck at it i know!! i am a shocking driver i know!!! thank goodness changing lanes is not in the full licence test.......

Goign to do somethign to cheer myself up now! wish i have someone to complain to tho...

My connection to internet is going funny recently... like last night.. it just went DEAD!!! it's still 'connected' but the uploading and downloading thing is pretty much frozen.... what's happening??? Anyway.. if i went offline without saying bye~ it means my connection is screwed up ok~~ sorry ppl :S

Sometimes i wish i could just scream all my worries away... but they wont' go away.. becoz i am not doing anything about it until i absolutely have to... I am such a procrastinator it's not funny. I mean.. not just for uni... for ANYTHING... i think i have an incapabitlity to handle anythign out of the ordinary... mum is right, i worry too much about thigns i don't need to... things that coudl be solve instantly, i'll procrastinate.. and driving myself crazy in the process until eventually i give up and do whatever needs to be done... u know... i tell my mum most things(ok i must admit... i haven't told her about my wagging records) becoz i am so immature.. can't make up my mind on anything.... when am i goign to grow up??? *sigh* i am probabily end up being those ppl that dies eventually coz of mental breakdown or something... lol maybe i shud make a new year resolution to not procrastinate??? doubt it will work tho.... u konw.. in the movies.. everyone likes the more lay-back person.. everyone likes the kind of person that can sit down and make a joke... y can' i be like that... instead i am always stressed out about something, argh~~~

Anyway.. checking my account balance... and...er... HOW THE HELL DID I SPENT OVER $500 IN 2 MONTHS?!?!?! ok.. break it down... $80 on bus, $100 on presents, $40 on blank cds, $150 on sponsorship, that's... $130 left.... ok.. not to bad i guess.. but then i didn't go out that much at all (since NO ONE is there -___-) i mean.. i spent most of my holidays sitting at home playign games/starring at the comptuer screen.. surely that doesn't cost a thing... :P maybe i shoudl start book keeping.... a good habit to get into anyway... kinda annoying tho.. seeing mum putting all these figures one by one on the computer each day, maybe i'll invest in a book keeping notebook first and then start makign notes of all my expenses... LOL more spending eh~

DVD burner working now... dot'n know y... lol.. not like i care.. AS LONG AS IT WORKS ^^ in fact it's so cool :D never have to worry about running out of space on my computer (not like i ever did anyway) BUT now~ i can download as much as i want... i think dad is going to regrett telling me that i can dl as much as i want coz we wont' go over the limit at the end of this month :P

Lots of ppl got new webpage design for their blog... i want one too... but.. i am just not good enough with html.....ooooooooooooh well~ wish i can do html like amy and xtine ^^ their new page design looks amazing~~ not like mine.. so dull..

HaPpY bIrThDaY tO mY bElOvEd SiStEr EmIlY!!! ^^

Emily's b/d today.. went and got her a present :P oh~~ and she got me 2 boxes of coloured pens as my xmas present as i requested. ^^ and... still haven't got her xmas present yet -___- we've been shopping, but she just didn't see anythign that she wanted.. oh well~~ it can wait. ^^

GOT A DVD-BURNER TODAY!! ^^ dad gave me one ^^ waiting for that computer shop to open was definately worht it.. $133 for DVD writer that writes DVD+-R, DVD=-RW and all CD ones.. hehehe... so far it hasn't been working... dotn' know y... i must be doign somethign wrong eh~~ but once it start working.. think about the possibilities. ^____^ Actually.. have to thank jeff.. if it wasn't him... i would've never considered getting DVD writer.. i was just looking for a CD writer.. but u know what~ the price is ok~ and plus.. DVD can fit so much more. ^^ hehehe ok i am happy now :P

Assingment handed in and done. ^^ OH~~ and i found 2 random assignemtn buddies... ok.. i was really desperate, i've done the assingmetn and stuff, but there were things i wasn't sure.. and well.. it's always nice to see if other ppl got the same as u rite?? so i posted a msg on the stats help page asking ppl to join me on the cecil chat.. AND PPL CAME ^^ 2 to be exact.. and i think only one of them came coz of the msg.. BUT NON THE LESS yay~~ one was an engineer which is great coz.. new stats programme R runs on html... and i can tell you that all the html i learnt from blogging is COMPLTELY USELESS.. lol.. anyway.. another assingment due next week ><>

ANYWAY~~~ shoudl catch up on stats notes... coz.. well u guys know y ;) bye~~

interview today.. kinda a weird interview?? dont' know.. this person just takes me around.. and tell me what they do and stuff.. and that was my interview??? *shrug* wish i made a good impression.. she said she can't hire me until i have 3 referees.. so far i have...1 -__- ok i put 2 down on my cv, but i doubt the 2nd one still remembers me.. oh well~~ just have to call my boss + a senior tutor at hsm tonite and beg them to be my referee =P and hopefully they'll let me. ^^ The place was... really far away... right next to Lynfield College if anyone know where it is. Took dad 40 mins... so will prob take me an hour to drive. It's basicallly quality control.. testing for any microbs and pathology (apparently if i get the job, i'll be in the pathology section). And i gues it's just measure, incubate, then examine... sounds basic enough.. bet there's more to it tho. First time i put on shoe covers.. heheh they are funny :P Oh~~ the place stunk tho.. like.. chemical??? hm... ok.. i think tis' the same smell at diagnostic medlab. i remember visitng it in 6th form and feelign sry for ppl who have to live with the smell.. but hey~~ here i am begging for a job where i get to work in an environtment with the smell?? ok i am not making sense :p But i don't know.. i kinda of dot ' want to work in quality control labs after i get my degree, growing 'microbs' is really.. not...that.. interesting to me.. but either way this job will be great as a partime work. *nod* either tho the distance is 'troublesome' *shrug* dont' even know if i got it yet.. so... we'll see ^^;

stats was so borign today.. almost fell asleep -_- interestingly... bcom ppl perform a lot better than bsc ppl in stats. HM.... ok.. this has always been my impression. Bhealth are hard out ppl, BEng are intelligent ppl, Bsc are smart ppl, Bcom are normal and BA..well.. the degree is useless anyway. but statistics shown otherwise.. and the teacher said coz Bcom actully require 280 bursary to get in.. he has a point... Hm..... so maybe out of all these time we science students are thought as the 'stupid' bunch??? lol.. that's interesting . ^^ perspective change :P

Anyway.. assignment due tomorrow... ARGH~~~ finish the draft.. but my draft normally sucked.... it's so sad.. i don't have anyone to discuss it with... =S i miss the time when alicia and i stayed up late and just talk over the assignemtn, and when angel, kevin, ganron and i gather together to discuss our assignemtns... good times.... but now i am on my own :S feel like i m goign to fail. =S ok i'll stop whinging... and get to work

but stats is so 'troublesome neh"~~ :P
p.s. Shikamaru is such a funny character ^^

Y DO I HAVE TO BE SHORT!!! ok i guess i am average among asians.. but in a kiwi community I AM SHORT. which means almost everything i buy HAVE TO BE ALTERED >< convenient ="D

2 days in summerschool.. i figured.. there are 2 types of ppl who do summerschool.. the hard out ones that wnat to finish their degrees early, the 'try again' group who are redoing their papers. and u know what.. i hink i just created a whole new group by myself.. the 'stupid' groug -_- y am i doign this again? so much to do on the assignemtn.. and there's one due EVERYWEEK.... i.. must...be... insanely stupid... oh well~~

On a good note.. had drviign practice with dad this morning.. and for once HE DIDNT' YELL AT ME AT ALL!!! hehehe he sure is controlling his tempers well.. i remember when i was getting my restricted.. 80% of the time i came home with tears coz he'll be yelling, insulting etc etc about how bad i drive... hehehe

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CHRSTINE!!!

AND

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO COUZ WILLY!!!

hm.. talented ppl have the same b/d huh~ anyway.. hope you 2 have a great year. ^^

ahahahaha *i am goign insane* i can't believe this... omg~~ ok.. got this fone call this morning.. and out of nowhere. I GOT A JOB INTERVIEW @___@ ok.. about 4 months ago i send in a CV to MAF coz apparently they hair students to do lab work, i think it's quality control. And today this lady called me up and said there's a guy leaving, and leave a vacancy. *shock* ok... this opportunity literally 'rained from sky' er.. so i guess i better do well in the interview eh~~ =S ok.. lucy's interview experience = 0 , number of formal clothing lucy contain = 0 (thanks to someone my white shirt now looks pink >< ) lucy's ability to look 'smart and formal' = 0 ok.. i am hoping they'll just ignore the little details and let me go to work eh~~ :P it's supposely a ongoing weekend job... argh~~ i want that job... oh well... wish me luck, it's on monday... should be ok... :S it's kind of far tho.. at blockhouse bay.. close to avondale :S just think about all the driving drives me mad... *shrug*... (kinda wish i still have a copy of that cv that i send it -_-) but omg~ what a good luck.. at this rate, i'll used up all my good luck in a few years time, and when i am old i'll be an unemployed aloner. ahahahah (ok. u can tell i am not an optimistic person eh~ :P)

First day so summerschool... AND IT'S SOOOOOOOO BORING :'( oh well~~ our lecturer is like.. a long bearded man... kinda weird... *shrug* but u know what.. having 2 hour lecture is tiring... and so easy to loose concentration.. i mean first day and i am already start 'decorating' my rubber -____- and on top of that.. it's like an assignment due everyweek... oh well.. hey~~ if i get the job.. does that mean i dotn' have to do summerschool anymore??? =O.

Anyway.. back to more naruto ^^ yay~~

AdDiCtEd~~~ Naruto is so cool~~ AdDiCtEd :P Mike lend me like.. 108 epiosodes yesterday, and i am up to 25 already.. quite freaky. The episodes on Haku is so sad... *sniff*

Anyway.. had my 2nd driving lesson today. He told me to go and apply alreayd... *shrug* freaky.. honestly.. driving down whitford WAS SO FREAKY!!!! how do they expect me to A drive well in a test condition, talk all the way through ON A ROAD I AM AFRIAD TO DRIVE ON!!! what the!!!... and he keep yelling at me coz i tend to drive towards teh middle of teh road instead of the left... -______- *sigh* do i really need a full license???

anyway... back to naruto ^^ hehehe

what i made during new year.. YES i was that bored. it's really small, just bigger than my thumb. hehehe, think mum said she wanted it so.. here's my last look at it. Hm.. maybe i'll make another one today... hm...

Ok.. hehehe mistake in my review thing, Jeff actually passed the L MUS A, which is a licentiate. wow~~ that's freaky.... hahahah ok... jeff is going to play piano for us during this party of his :D hahahahah ok.

I was browsing through friendster, and i found Angela, my primary friend, oh well~~ i mean i thoguth she moved to america or something, it turned out she's is melbourne doing b-com (so i assume) but wow.~~ interesting~~

Ok... i ruined our movie nite tonite since... i made a mistake checking out the movie times >< at least everyone was nice` no one said anything.. feel guilty now~~ so our family movie nite will be shifted to either tomorrow night or, when alexander comes out.... prob going to be the later... hm~~

ok.. outta things to say.. bye~~ ^^

Hahahhaa, ok, this is really sad... Emily and I literally ps2ing INTO 2005 -___- hahaha last time we checked the clock, it was 11:30pm, and somehow in our conquest to fight more monsters and collect more treasure before the other person, we lost track of time. Hehehe before we know it, the moon has risen and the fireworks began. Btw~~ did anyone else see the firewords at skycity yesterday??? it's relaly somthign, oh` and the one at domain is nice too~ personally think it looks better than sky city one, but ehn sky city one eccentric the tower really well. =P

Woke up this morning, went downstairs to.. heat up my breakfast, then i saw dad came into the kitchen (mum was already in the kitchen making maffins) so i went upstairs to grab the wedding anniversary card i made for them yesterday. and by the time i came down.. THEY WERE ALREADY ARGUING -___- pretty loud too, and it's so stupid, it's over a toaster (coz emily, abnormally had toast today, and dad thoguht mum was just being lazy and not put the toaster back into the cupboard) -___- so i told them to stop yelling, they are makgin me very hard to give them a card, and dad said, we dotn' need a card, u mite as well as stick it on the back of mum's head. -____- yup great start to 2005 eh~~ dad's angry, mum's angry, and i am upset (no one appreciate my card :'( ) and you know what~~ it's all coz Emily had toast this morning.. hahah life can be funny eh~~ =P either way~ mum have a way of fixing problems... (think she's talking to dad now) *shrug* ^^ guess 2005 will by a colourful year huh~ =D